lla'

't an excuse but I can't control myself when I'm intoxicated. She is my best friend, it was just a thing between best friends, nothing else, but I shouldn't have done that. The way he looked at me, the disappointment in his eyes. The way Billie looked at me like she was disgusted. Why am I such an asshole to her? I just want to run away, stop the voices in my head. I went out of the house, sat down on the stairs a

own

er d

ne and saw Den called me like 6 times, tears ran down my cheek. I don't wanna hear her out, I already know that i

ie's

that's no reason to act like a baby, be selfish or resentful. The bigger problem is that I couldn't find her, not in the backyard, not in the living room or on the first floor, not in one of the many rooms. She shouldn

ir voices, they all turned

ooking for her? Get your shit together, we have to look for her! I don't care if you want or not. She is you

don't care where she's," he tur

om thinks the same" he looked bac

" I raised my eyebrow at him, walked past him, and raised my arms " Really? the f

come on guys, we all know what can happen and I don't want to this happen

drian and me we're trying to call her and her Mom maybe she knows something. We stay here and wait, maybe she comes back" she walked ov

end too" She laid her hand on his cheek and looked at

ll the bedrooms, we searched every damn room but no Stella, we went to the bathroom, opened the door but that was empty too, we

, she's not in here. Can you please call Den?" I turned to Alex with pleading eyes, who took h

handed me her phone, i took it out of her hand, pulled out my phone, unlocked it and typed in her number, handed Alex her phone back. I pressed the call button and wai

her and shook my head. " Den said we should meet at the entrance, we have to look up the area aroun

she likes " she said to all of us, pointing towards me "You and Alex look around the house and the street. Mat, me and Adrian will drive t

smiled back turned around opened the

x's hand and ran towards Stella who was about to wa

self free from my grip, pushing me back. She ran

the last second, i stumbled and fell on the sidewalk with her. She tried to get out of my grip, hitting my chest, "

to stop. I turned back to her, "Breathe Stella, you need to calm down, please," I whispered to h

put my finger under her chin and lifted her head to look at me, I studied her

nodded and wiped her eyes with the back of her hand, I took her other hand and placed it on her heart "Do

r in the eyes "It's okay that you're not okay, you may be hurt at some point and you'll be miserabl

s," she looked into my eyes again, "I need it all to stop," I pulled her closer to me, resting her head in my neck, "I know I'm here for you," I

I don't know her that well but I feel like I need to protect her from everything and everyone, I fel

ds to sleep, would you mind if she stays at yours? I think she needs you now and she can't go home like this. I will call he

nd was about to get up when she grabbed my jacket " No" she whimpered, pulli

ex can you open my car? I need to carry her" She nodded and I tossed her my keys. I stood up and pulle

smiled at me " Yeah, I'm glad she's okay, I'm glad you're here for her, Bil, really " I held out my arms " Come here " I pulled

er at least? " she shouted

my number" She gave me a sad look " Hey, it's okay, give me your hand I'll write it down there " she smiled

op !" she ran towards my car, I rolled down the window "What is it? " I gave her an anno

snapped at her. "I know, good night Bil" She looked at me

with Alex, why is Stella like that? why do I feel so connected to her? I pulled into the driveway, unbuckled

the house,Finneas opened the door and gave me a questioning look " Bil who is this? " I walked past him "I'll tell you later, good night Fin "

her shoes and pulled her in the middle of the bed, laying the cover

t?", I asked to make sure she was saying what I was heari

o her, took off my shoes and lay down

dnight Stella " I lay flat on my back,

to my neck, I could feel the warmth of her breath on my neck. My chest felt light and happy, a permanent sm