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r constantly, and even talk on the phone. We actually have our first official date tonight. I have been asking her out a lot, bu

for hours on the phone, but the second I bring up seeing each other she tenses. I really

just glad I was able to trade shifts with my buddy, so I could take Joslyn out. I was afraid if I had to reschedule she would just back out.

profile in the chat room. I mean we have been talking for some time, but I guess she is sti

yn, you loo

ike Joslyn was a breath of fresh air. It also helped that we had so much in common. We both loved h

e but didn't know which one yet. As we talked I noticed she kept looking everyw

s everyth

really shy, and well

t a bad

nd funny, but I have never been o

to believe since y

t see the amazing woman I saw in front of me. I would not make that same mistake. I really liked Jos

not being with Joslyn really bothered me. We sat there for hours then she f

odbyes she seemed a lot more at ease. After I walked her to her car I decid

f my fellow brothers are hurt. I should have been there tonight. I looked

ht away Colby was one of the ones that were hurt. I hurried out of there and went to the hospital. I felt so much guilt in my h

yn's

't know why it took me so long to agree to a date with him. He was unlike any other guy I have ever m

the one thing I always wanted to do so I can help others. I got a call from my friend Lacey thinking she was going to grill me

what's

eal. Joslynn,

et in with his firehouse since he was the closest thing to family I had alon

are you

was to say goodbye to my sister. I couldn't think about any of that now or I would fall apart. I needed to be strong for my friend. Once I got there I rushed into the E

what ha

. All I know is some people are dead. A few

He had the night off he said, but did he get called in? I looked a

u know how

al right away. What if he was one of the ones that died? I

over. I hoped for this unborn babies' sake and for Lacey that they would never have to

an change so much. My sister dying made me want to be a better pe

to hold her husband in her arms once more? Will their baby grow up with both its

ize how much I needed to live. In the blink of an eye everything you know can be tak