ation. My eyes scan and check my tawny hair is neat and sleek in its high bun and I scrutinize my reflection again, to make sure it's precise
ll
of cold poise and gray tailoring that exudes authority, with no hint of the turmoil of emotion inside me. I narrow my
ght for my new role as personal assistant to my very high-profile boss. Professional and capable on the outside which I guess is what matters, calm
g my balance with one hand on the wall and hearing the mov
rubs her eyes with the back of her fist childishly as I watch her in the reflection behind me. It's unusual f
; casually loveable as always, and I am warmed with affection for that bundle of happy energy. Her bright blue eyes are heavy
m the floor in front of me and head forward into our open plan apartment. Ever conscious of my grace and mannerisms under scrutiny, even in front of
e to the living room area, trying to distract her from the open gawking she seems to be doing. Running through my
xpression. She looks much younger than her age and sometimes I forget we went to school together. I'm more like her guardian than her roommate nowadays, bu
ne and my endless organization of our lives. She knows this is the way I do thing
bright white and gray kitchen to the side of me and begins making herself a coffee. Lifting the mug I washed earlier this morning from the rack for herself,
n I needed it, never aware of how I drew from that uncompl
e few open letters from the counter I've yet to deal with today. I know that I'm lingering and acting indecisively, compar
om behind the toaster and holds it out expecta
eady taken care of them, as usual." Her sparkli
it from her slowly with careful fingers, eyeing
smiles brightly and sets about going back to making herself coff
h and mentally note down a memo to do so. I ritually pay our bills at the start of every month when I'm paid, hav
y head at her, fully aware that she prefers that I take control of our living expenses and always have. She's never been good with money and I doubt she would remember to pay the rent on
rful day." I turn from the breakfast bar and head for the main door of our apartment, lifting m
er eyebrows; leaning out across the worktop so all I can see is her head popping out from the kitchen at a funny angle. She look
tting my stomach hard again but ignore the sensation, swall
d pull my outside jacket on over my suit. I frown back at her question, the tightening knot in my stomach intensifying somewhat but I shake
wouldn't
tle culinary world, oblivious to anything amiss in my behavior today. I smile again as I watch her r
t Sa
bilities and cool,
old me at all. If she even associates me with
oment to be still. Refusing to let emotion get the better of me and crack my armor. Looking down at the cool silver kno
n do
traces of my adolescent Emma, to focus on the tasks ahead of me. The responsibilities I'll be taking on after today. It's heady and overwhelming, but I steel my nerves inwardly, stil
necting with my face. Each step strengthening my resolve, back to my normal practiced demeanor and that inne