so desperate to stop this pain that's wracking my body. Unable to find relief as it only b

never choose to leave you. They

on my heart. The regret at staying back for that one night, because I was tired and didn't want to spend the time with them after getting home from finishing school in London only days before. Resentful tha

ou to be gone like they are. They would want you to go on and live your life as intended." Jyeon continues cradl

and I push my face up in the crook of Jyeon's arm to see him. The now handsome fifteen year old, leaning over his brother's shoulder and looking so devastatingly like him while retaining all the cute and sweet that is so Yoonha

" I despair again, the tears now set free are relentless and m

g it until his knuckles whiten, and I know I'm being selfish, but I can't help it. I'm not the only one in pain but mine is so big

ol, the commanding and mature side kicking in. For being only eighteen he has long felt like a man in my eyes, and I lean into him looking for shelter, relieved to not yet be torn away. Despite our

Yoonah tries to slide me out of his brother's arms

raps his arm around me protectively, pulling my face against his chest, and leans into Yoonha. "Be her brother. Empty the hall, see our parent's home, and do what you should do." It's a

and reliable boy I depend on almost daily in normal life. These past years he's been my shadow and kept me sane in a society that'

towards Yoonha. Shocked out of my grief at his irritation. I catch him frown, and then he swallows hard with regret at his own h

e, Yoon, I'm depending on you." He reaches out and rubs Yoonah on the side of his face and ear with genuine affection, to soothe over the bruised feelings and I quietly allow myself to be manoeuvred with his o

obably thinks that being together would be easier on both of us, buy Jyeon is right. All eyes are on us, with every single media outlet publicising my parent's tragic accident. So many milling guests still in here, and rumours start so easi

Jyeon's mother cuts in and appears behind Yoonah, moving him aside with a gentl

d transferring me from his arms to hers. My body cooling instantly without his immense heat, even through his suit. As though I'm a doll with no ability to choose for myself but I welc

o fall, and despite never in my life having this woman embrace me this way, it feels like

oud and try my very best to be what you need. It's what she would ask of me. I'll stay here a while and we can say our goodbyes together. I want to say goodbye to them too." She wraps her arms around me tightly and I try and blot the world out, unaware

ions, all slowly ebb away, lost in their own loss and misery, because my parents were truly good people, who were the glue for all o

know this is only the beginning of the pain and grief I have coming, but it somehow lightens the wei