here's a loud bang in my head making me wince in agony. I reach over to my b

ce but to open my eyes. The action sends bul

y room. I move my eyes to my body and internally swear as I stare at my na

with m

of water traveling down his lower body, I can only assume he'd just gotten out of the shower the way his chiseled body glows. The s

as he picks up his phone to look at the time. Asshole. Suddenly all my dreams of a futu

lieve this is the overrated feeling of being alive. Last night I was really dr

bed, I'll never tell him that of course. He was driving me home after we left the club because we don'

agined my first time being with Tristan, I'd thought about how magical it would be. But I'd instead lost my virginity t

erable. I'd been his shoulder to cry on and well, we kissed. It didn't mean any

ips intertwining. They fit perfectly against each other, like they were meant for one another. I

f my apartment that I'd turned into a writing room. This is where I start

ut of habit," I sing to the background mus

they're harder to manage." I dim t

I'll bury the hatchet, Can we just

heart still c

room" Alessia Cara continues to sing and I feel so understood. Although I'

ve you." I stop typing, breathe and let mys

u?" It's weird to think but the hurt has beco

blue. How do I let you go if I don't want to?" Eventually I'm going to have

as opposed to oppressing them was what I'd been lacking. I'm learning that it's ok to feel. It's ok to be v

after my little session. I then go to sleep

been expecting. She forces me to wake up and

e asks as she wiggles her ey

man is good looking no doubt, he's great in be

her cozy last night," she says as she

ord cozy?" I say but it sounds more like a question. The last thing I want is to be seen as another one of

ull support," she says as she decides to go f

ys, my heart already belongs to someone," I say hoping to e

ggerated sigh. I might've rambled about my Tristan situation last night when I was drunk. She say

ready to head out. She just won't understand, and