t it unsettles me just the same, and I can't den

e my

or fi

the moment. I look out of the corner of my eye at Julian

remember

e whi

ly brushed my skin with it, realizing

enough , to observe if I have anything on my face. But I snort anyway. I

ng closer and closer to me, I think it wants

tic beach: which makes me smile. I'm walking, feeling under my

my ima

Somewhat dazed. But at the same time satisfied, I

indicates with his hand for me to s

n would never refuse a

I sit with my back cares

g on sunscreen. I si

love your

ss.

r a v

vo

speaking out loud: as I ima

ed to see him in

ter away from me, has a robe on, and looks a

... I'm sorry, i

ing a fantasy with

ever have a fan

ed, I give myself a mental slap

have a fantasy

understand... Do you wan

say, blushing with embar

vade me, that peculiar floor with black and white rectan

im, inexistently I swallow saliva,

because I no longer want to bite my fingers

feeling today

'm fine, a

friend had told me and a

es

eling a little sore

ry, are you ready

claimed rath

, it'll be quick, I w

no

is that I've had th

exclaim, with a tr

I'll be r

black padded tab

ally know what to expect and m

egan to scratch again and again with my ri

, he app

he so han

lie dow

words. I feel the coldness of

g: it looks so neat, ne

often enough, do

by a cleani

ork cleaning tables th

in surprise: real

e has a different

at I don't quite understand what it's f

d to wear a long dress, and apparentl

ee my intimate part, which I had waxed rigorously thanks to Ana's advice. I had been sufferin

embarrassment begins

r dress... please?" h

my underwear, and he start

have never had thi

with the person I li

siness as he put the

right? "He

so, not r

our intimate walls are okay,

en three minutes, he finally takes off

ere's something he won't

confused, bl

t? "I ask

me you were a virgi

ad not crossed that little detail. He apparently

I don't understa

, I didn't mean

being a virgin, but it's okay. G

ness, and put my underwear b

ind always starts making notes on a small piece of

ll give you an appointment for next

for taking care of me," I c

d was just about to l

ng to the café toda

re like a resto

me already? "he comments amused

that no