od up

drawing me deeper into the garden. I stopped. What was I doing? Gosh. I needed a bath. My heart was

here? What the h

er what I saw. I would either tear his

nd you here," he said

to me? After what he did? Fin

you never really know where someone might end up when they'r

with his right hand, "I've be

against my cheek. "Of course you have, or you've bee

eached out and gently turned my face to meet his gaze. "Lily,

and away from my face. "Permission? When did I s

talk but I di

uld I say girlfriend, to wish you a

y arm. "Lily, you know

my lips. "Tyler, I saw you with my ow

ashing in his eyes. "You're no

, it was hard to believe there was any plausible explanation. The pain I felt hung ove

and right then, I needed to think about how I felt. All those years I had lived for him and thought only about what he wanted me to do, what he wanted us to be and how he wanted things to be done. I had never prioritised my own feelings

gaze with sadness and anger all over my face. "What's th

he normally did when he is frustrated. "It's no

noyed at that point. "Some kind of friend, huh? The way you we

e. I know I messed up," he admitted with a low and remorsef

y heart. But the hurt was still too fresh and the wound was too raw. "It's

rated breath. "Lily,

eart aching. "I've

pleading. "Lily, please.

I freaking trusted you. You know how much I did for you. You

ough my parents would get upset with me for bringing him along. The memori

elody I knew. I remembered the way he looked at me, like I was the only one in the world who matte

rtfelt apology or a shared smile. I remembered the late-night conversations and all the secrets we shared und

tching him with her, the way they looked at and held each other. It broke the idyllic picture

ow seemed bittersweet. To have a clean slate, a mind without the weight of what once

en stepped back. "I gave you my heart, Tyler,

his eyes searching mine

head. "Sorry doesn't fix this, Tyler.

, but his voice s

fists, my patience we

as he stared at me. "Au

That wasn't something I had expected. I didn't understand and i

means that I thought I had lost my chance with you. I though

would he lose his chance with me? I'd always made it known that he was the only guy I loved and ever w

hat? Did I? And did you ever ask me? I've literally only ever li

inst my skin. " I..." Of course, he didn't

you." He completely disregarded what I ju

eyes and dragged my hand

, I'm telling you the truth. She's a c

y emotions were almost out of control. "You e

up, Lily. But I can't change the past. I can only

my head. My feelings were all jumbled up

ocess all of this, to think about everything. Bu

to try anymore. He just nodded and le

." He

ilence between us b

slowly, "I think...

ind of saw it coming. Then, my surprise turned into anger

andle, and I didn't want him to see me cry. I turned and left, feeling really sad and mad. My steps

id just once and yelled at him, 'F