PTE
jolted in
ay, the words, thick with large gaping holes between each letter, were easy to see. Add in the two gigantic brick pillars on either side of the road that held up
t even
had never cr
rming me that coming here had bee
is exclusive Portland, Oregon university, and one semester
mmunity college. The university was so prestigious that even most class valedictorians
shaping the future of students from the country's wealthiest and most influential fam
me still hadn't given me a clear answer as to why. All he'd said was that an anonymous donor had
ly pushed me out the door to attend. Mom couldn't believe I'd seriously considered n
me out of the house. I tended to hole up in my room whenever I w
rt telling me to turn around and drive the two hours back home and the other
signments, and Lucy seemed like a fun person. I'd let her know when I planned on arriving, and she'd said she'd be ther
no preconceived notions about me. I had a chance to m
My emotions were running rampant. The last thing I needed was to put pres
record, that w
f up for an inevita
oomed straight ahead. The pictures I'd seen online didn't do justice to my view of the towering cherry trees framin
for the quickest route to the apartment I'd been
fields and t
opposing emotions contrasted with each other like repelling magnets. My breathing qui
ing was seriously wrong with me: Dishes rattled on the table, lights flickered, and a sense of how people were feeling sometimes swamped m
, and the parking lot the advisor had instructed me to use appeared on the lef
not working, especially as my janky old Honda Civic
o see what would happen when I did somethi
farthest from the apartment buildings, my blood had an extr
no reining in the weirdness. My eyes homed in
od
mf
to be
cape to get my anx
ut, locking it with the fob. It was t
e in the world. The two women had an air of confidence, and three men towered over them, their muscular bodies emphasized
very essence. The fizzing in my blood
ods, not wanting to be caught staring at them. I needed to g
imeter, I put one foot in front of the other. If I could get in
ually
ad been the plan since I'd graduated with an Associate of Science from Columbia Gorge Community College last spring, but an online scho
my blood hummed. The needles on the fi
ost wished it would stop beating. I didn't under
ear me. Between the comforting sound of the bird and the lack of witnesses to my mel
nsion. I hated how my emotions took over at times. It was as if something inside me amped them up, and the anxiety-
teria. When I spotted a sizable fallen tree trunk, I sat on the wood, ignoring t
the air, and I leaned my head back and looke
graduated from community college flitted into my mind. He'd been caught i
ad seemed so intelligent ... so real. I'd told him I was there to help him, and it w
d with fresh air, and the sounds of animals
tall guy popped into my brain. My stomach bubbled, not
top. I had to
the moment to wash over me. I dug my shoes into the mulch, s
r twenty feet away. Its head tilted as it took me in and slowly inched forward. This was why I visited the woods: to be one with nature and see it
ant her
ine, and the hair on t
shed over me, and the deer paused. She avert
was watc
the opposite direction, and the
swallow a
ind could do when they encountered something they didn't understand-like a deer walking straight
rm. After all, I needed to move my stuff into my apar
rld. Showing my fear was the worst thing I could
I pretended to yawn, hoping it would help my
last time this had happened was in high school. A group of students had cornered me in the back of the schoo
campus. I had an inkling where the person was, thanks to my
where I didn't feel safe. This was the one place I cou
at the person was following me or trying to cut
sation again. Something like sinister curiosity rolled over me, and
nned, and I w
nse of calmness was gone, and I sensed that someone was nearly on top of me. I began to jog, often glancing