I

from ear to ear and holding Tom's business card. Jessie looks at me, her face twisted in confusion. She looks around the store then back at me. She narrows her eyes and slowly wal

e actually going out with him!" Still smiling, she pats my hand. T

ep secrets from them. One girl's night out, after one too many cherry bombs, I unloaded my past on

e my

are a

make the gi

ens a little but I quickly pull on a poker face and

heer, smile big and say, "Actua

speak for almost

one leg crossed over the other. Her eyes are narrowed (stop that darling, you'll get wrinkles) and

re you freaking

she b

ore returning with, "It's be

, "Umm, No. It's

head slightly and

t s

t to disapp

They both set me up on blind dates hoping I would meet a nice man and fall in love. I went on four dates in the last four mont

t need

reciate your interest

Of social life!

on't have the time for a boyfriend right now. To tell you the truth, I don't

counter in front of me. She leans in

and my eyes mist.

le and I know telling me this is taxing her. "I know I'm not the most cheerful person and I don't do emotions w

o. It took me over a year to trust Jessie and Lola enough to tell them about myself. They know most o

in some way or a

-half-full

t as I think about wha

s it.

at soon I'll have the best par

er week. A

e. I love her for that; she makes me laugh all the time. Humor is my

o see her so I can squeeze her. I haven't seen her in a year but we talk on the phon

Chris

I say abo

three. We were both in college when he asked me out.

s. He was my first boyfriend, my

n. I fooled around, too, but I

him my virginity after only three months toge

eat is

e! That's the only thing

about it. It was me initiating foreplay most o

ngaged or even move in together. We were happy with our relationship. Most of our time

e played basketball through college. Wearing his dark brown hair in

ack, you go

as great unt

loathe Chris. He is a cowar

can I say

shattered it into

of man doesn't show up to