uldn't accept the fact that this was me . The thoughts going through my head were making me go insane and making me question if I was normal. No matter what it

or me and I knew that she deserved that happiness but I couldn't help it . I knew that it was best that I kill every stupid feelings that I had with my step dad , after all I was going to be away soon , so there's no fucking need for me to get myself messed all over him . I should just stick to Chris because he belongs to me and Shaun belongs to my mother . I knew that killing all those thoughts and acting like Nothing ever happened was going to help . If I didn't want to hurt my mom then I had to do this . The thought of how my mom was going to react if she found out what I had done was killing me . A loud bang on my door brought me out of my thoughts but before I could say a word , the door to my room, mom walked in with my step dad . "For fuck sake mom , you should have waited for my permission to get in before you did , you are invading my space and I don't like it " I yelled out Mom didn't say a word to me alongside my step dad who didn't say but just stared at me . " Sorry but I know that you wouldn't be getting dressed at this point , that was the only reason why I walked in . " but that doesn't mean that you can just walk in , you should have waited for me to tell you to before you came in . I didn't know why I was so pissed , I didn't know if it was because my mom got married to another man and forgot all about me or my dad , or she walked into my room with the man that I want . " you know what rissa , I just came here to share a little piece of information . Well since you have gotten admitted , your dad and I have decided that you aren't going to stay outside the house . Since your school is just a few kilo