ts in that hospital room. But I knew that the weigh

and vows. My mouth was dry and my eyes were as though they'd been h

f all people?

doctors had to say. I slowly excused myself like

if it was for the ladie

ded to break down because I hav

ld tiles hit my knees before

ds covering my face, my whol

oul open. The kind of cry that turns you

ice still echoe

en diagnosed with can

er the counter kind of illness but t

come out of your fucking office to diagnose her of cancer? To literally te

.. you are so cruel you know that right? Haven't we suffered

me. I didn't even hear the tap running, I didn't realize

you okay?"

ly with the back of m

wearing a white coat with 'Dr. Vanessa's embroidered in a sm

was a doctor, just for

oked like someone who doesn't cry. Who had all she wan

umbled, tryi

ean to caus

quickly and politely

human and we have emot

What if she laughed? What if she was the type that judged people who didn

are clearly not fine... a

ply n

to tell me. I just.... I heard you c

pause...One of th

ce softened a

just in ro

, how did

seeing her with t

your m

he is m

tly. "I'm so sorry...real

ears I was holding back fell down my face. She was gent

..why I felt like I d

eiving the empathies, the sympat

d tried to wipe my smot from my

ve".. I said, m

s. It is infact cruel to some of us, if not

Because I knew it. I lived it but hearing it from some

he sink beside her. My eyes met hers in the mir

rying?... or w

oo?"... I asked

lightly, but

a long boring an

he end of

door. But just before she left, she turned

without thinking or bli

for a little moment. Almost

ame surname as hi

dded slowl

leared her throat and gave

if yourse

that, she

ood there

alking about. W

ger issues. When I stepped out of the restroo

ing, tubed running through her nose, the machine

tugging her lips as

her voice faint. "W

needed some air and wash my face

faintly, "E

her just as my father doe

est while my mi

ng, chemotherapy would start soon and

of crying in the hospital restrooms, tires of