"Lalaki lang ako, mahina sa tukso." This kind of reasoning did not work well with Ashene Lei Castro. Bukod sa galit siya, ito rin ang unang heart break niya sa kanyang first boyfriend na si John Kenneth Guzman. Gusto niya rin naman subukan na patawarin ito, ngunit ni isang "sorry," walang lumabas mula sa labi ng binata. Mahal niya ito, ngunit hindi niya hahayaan na masaktan siya muli. Simula noon, pinangako niya sa sarili na wala nang makapananakit pa sa kanya. And her way of doing so is kind of peculiar ā wearing thick glasses. Ayaw niyang may lumapit pa na lalaki sa kanya at subukang suyuin siya, kung sa huli ay magloloko lang ulit. But there is more behind the glasses. Maiintindihan kaya iyon ng lalaking gusto muling subukan na maging parte ng buhay niya? O tuluyan na siya nitong bibitawan?
"IYAN NA naman iyong nerd."
"Akala mo naman kung sinong maganda, makalandi, wagas."
"Naiirita ako sa mga nerd na babae."
Hay naku, nakakarindi na. It's been what? Three? Six? I can barely remember when I started hearing those shits from those people describing themselves. Well, except that they don't look like nerds, but worse.
Tawa much ako sa mga babae na kung makapanglait ng iba, parang wala silang salamin sa bahay.
Haist, na-stress na naman ang bangs ko sa mga ito! Walang ibang ginawa kundi mag-almusal ng panlalait, daig pa mga chismosa sa kanto.
"Ashene Lei Castro!"
Oh great! Just great!
Guess it's time for me to run from this babae na super kulit!
"Hoy, baklita! Huwag mo ako takbuhan. May atraso ka sa akin. Bumalik ka dito."
In your dreams!
"Kakalbuhin talaga kita kapag naabutan kita, makita mo!"
That's my enemy. Oh, scratch that!
She's the worst girl ever, the enemy of all. Boses pa lang, nakakarindi na. Ewan ko ba kung bakit best friend turing niya sa akin eh palagi ko ngang nilalayuan at inaaway.
Dahil na rin sa nalaman niya ang reason kung bakit ganito ako. Kaya iyon, feeling niya best friend ko na siya eh hindi naman sinasadya na malaman niya ang lahat. Hindi ko iyon in-open sa kanya. Sadyang pakialamera lang talaga siya!
Flashback.
Narito kami ngayon sa gym ng school namin. Walang tao dahil last period na sa hapon na ito.
At ako na isang honor student, first time nag-cut sa klase para makausap ang lalaking ito.
"Look, I am so sorry. Lalaki lang ako, mahina sa tukso-"
"Shut the fuvk up, jerk! Pwede ko rin naman sabihin iyan eh. Pwede ko rin gawin ang mga ginawa mo. Pero pinili kong hindi gawin kasi alam ko na may lalaking naghihintay sa pag-uwi ko. Lalaki na akala ko, ako lang ang tinitingnan, na ako lang ang mahal. Pero puta lang!"
Marahas kong tinulak-tulak siya. Hinuli niya ang mga kamay ko at mahigpit iyon na hinawakan. Halata na sa mukha niya na galit na siya sa ginagawa ko. Well, wala siyang karapatan na magalit! Ako itong niloko niya. Ako itong ginago niya!
Hinahayaan ko siya sa mga gusto niyang gawin dahil puno ang tiwala ko, pero-
"Anong pinagkaiba natin, ha? Pakisabi nga. Lalaki ka, babae ako. Ang pinagkaiba lang natin, gender, wala na. So paki-explain nga. Hindi ko ma-gets iyong reason mo. Na lalaki ka at mahina sa tukso? Ang sabihin mo, gago ka. Wala iyan sa pagiging lalaki mo. Gago ka lang talaga kaya mahina ka sa tukso!"
"Let me explain, babe. Puro ka dada. Papagsalitain mo rin ako at nang malinawan ka."
Binawi ko na ang mga kamay ko na agad niya namang binitawan. Namumula na ang wrist ko. Masusuntok ko siya, kaunti na lang!
"Sige nga, explain! Anong palusot ang sasabihin mo? At nang maihanda ko na ang sarili ko sa pagtawa nang malakas sa isang malaking kalokohan na ginawa mo. Explain!"
Napakamot siya sa right ear niya. "Tsk!"
"Aba't hoy-"
There he goes again. He kissed me when I'm not done talking. He's always like this.
Siguro kung hindi kami nag-aaway ngayon, kikiligin ako. Pero galit ako. And I admit na sarado ang isip ko para makinig sa kung ano man ang hinanda niya na explanation. At kung ano man iyon, that's pure bullshit!
Nanatili lang sarado ang lips ko while he's trying to make an entrance.
Ang kapal ng mukha niya! Pagkatapos niya makipaglandian sa iba, magso-sorry siya sa akin at makikipaghalikan pa? Napakagago!
Biglang nag-flash sa isip ko ang mga nangyari kanina.
Ang ganda ng gising ko. Una kong kinuha ang phone ko para sana i-text ang boyfriend ko ng sweet messages. Nakita ko sa notification bar na may unknown sender na nag-send daw ng picture.
Hindi ko na sana papansinin kaso baka importante iyon kaya inuna ko nang i-open. Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig sa nakikita.
My boyfriend lying in the background, naked. And this bitch who took the picture didn't even try to hide her face. Buong mukha niya lang naman hanggang sa may dibdib niya ang kinuhaan niya. And she was wearing a cheap-looking bra- plain black na nga lang, mukha pang baby bra.
Ipagpapalit na lang ako, doon pa sa walang cleavage!
Bumalik ang atensyon ko sa kanya nang hawakan niya ang baba ko at sapilitang paghiwalayin ang mga labi ko.
Hindi na ako nagdalawang-isip pa. Sinuntok ko siya. Lahat ng lakas ko, emosyon ko, pati na rin ang galit ko sa babae niya, binuhos ko sa suntok na iyon.
Well, I'm kind of a fighter kung kailangan sa sitwasyon. Puro kasi mga lalaki ang kapatid ko at hindi nila ako sinanay sa girl's fight na tamang sabunutan at sampalan. So when it comes to strength, I am confident that I'm good with this.
Salo niya ang kanyang mukha. Matalim na rin ang mga tingin niya sa akin ngayon.
Kilala ko ang lalaking ito. Alam ko na iniisip niya, kung hindi lang ako babae, bugbog sarado na ako ngayon. Well, advantage ko pa rin na babae ako, at boyfriend ko ang nasampulan ko ng first fist fight ko.
Oops, from the moment he cheated on me pala ay hindi ko na siya boyfriend.
Hindi ako nagpakita ng kahit anong kahinaan sa harap niya. Pinipigilan ko rin ang pag-iyak na dapat ay bumabaha na ngayon sa sobrang sakit na binigay niya sa akin. Ayaw kong isipin niya na kawalan siya.
Dahan-dahan akong tumalikod at naglakad palayo sa kanya. Kahit naman nasasaktan ako sa ginawa niya, may parte pa rin ng puso ko na umaasa na pipigilan niya ang mga kamay ko. Na luluhod siya at magmakaawa na patawarin ko siya ngayon.
Pero hanggang sa makauwi ako, walang kamay na humabol.
Binalot ako ng panghihinayang sa pinagsamahan, sa mga alaala na binuo, at mga pangarap na hindi na mangyayari.
Sinusumpa ko, from this day onward, wala nang makapananakit pa sa akin tulad ng ginawa ng gagong iyon. This will be the first and the last time that I will cry and will look like a loser.
Well, right now I'm a loser. But this will never ever happen again, never!
COALESCENCE OF THE FIVE SERIES BOOK ONE: THE 5-TIME REJECTED GAMMA & THE LYCAN KING BOOK TWO: THE ROGUES WHO WENT ROGUE BOOK THREE: THE INDOMITABLE HUNTRESS & THE HARDENED DUKE *** BOOK ONE: After being rejected by 5 mates, Gamma Lucianne pleaded with the Moon Goddess to spare her from any further mate-bonds. To her dismay, she is being bonded for the sixth time. Whatās worse is that her sixth-chance mate is the most powerful creature ruling over all werewolves and Lycans - the Lycan King himself. She is certain, dead certain, that a rejection would come sooner or later, though she hopes for it to be sooner. King Alexandar was ecstatic to meet his bonded mate, and couldnāt thank their Goddess enough for gifting him someone so perfect. However, he soon realizes that this gift is reluctant to accept him, and more than willing to sever their bond. He tries to connect with her but she seems so far away. He is desperate to get intimate with her but she seems reluctant to open up to him. He tries to tell her that he is willing to commit to her for the rest of his life but she doesnāt seem to believe him. He is pleading for a chance: a chance to get to know her; a chance to show her that heās different; and a chance to love her. But when not-so-subtle crushes, jealous suitors, self-entitled Queen-wannabes, an old flame, a silent protector and a past wedding engagement threaten to jeopardize their relationship, will Lucianne and Xandar still choose to be together? Is their love strong enough to overcome everything and everyone? Or will Lucianne resort to enduring a sixth rejection from the one person she thought she could entrust her heart with?
She thought she was the love of his life, and he became the love of her life that fateful day she had seen him at the pack's party. Selene Grace was only a replica of Alpha Leo's real mate, and when he spotted her, Leo immediately claimed her as his Luna in order to suppress the rumors of him being mateless. Being unable to conceive turns Selene's marriage into a nightmare, and as if that wasn't enough, Alpha Leo finally reunites with his long time lover and mate, rejecting a pregnant Selene as a result. 5 years later, Selene, a now successful doctor, receives an invitation to the moon shadow pack in order to rid the pack of a deadly disease which has struck it. Will Selene return back to the pack which had caused her so much pain, and what would she do when she realizes that she is mated to the Alpha who had betrayed her in the past?
As a simple assistant, messaging the CEO in the dead of night to request shares of adult films was a bold move. Bethany, unsurprisingly, didn't receive any films. However, the CEO responded that, while he had no films to share, he could offer a live demonstration. After a night filled with passion, Bethany was certain she'd lose her job. But instead, her boss proposed, "Marry me. Please consider it." "Mr. Bates, you're kidding me, right?"
"I'm going to tell you what I have in mind," he murmured. "First you're going to strip down until you're completely naked," he whispered against her ear. "Then I'm going to tie you up so you're completely powerless and subject to my every whim." "Mmm, sounds good so far," she murmured. "Then I'm going to insert a plug to prepare you for me. After that I'm going to spank that sweet ass of yours until it's rosy with my marks." She shivered uncontrollably, her mind exploding with the images he evoked. She let out a small whimper as he sucked the lobe of her ear into his mouth. God, she could cum with just his words. She was already aching with need. Her nipples tingled and hardened to painful points. Her clit pulsed and twitched between her legs until she clamped her thighs together to alleviate the burn. "And then I'm going to f**k your mouth. But I won't cum. Not yet. When I'm close, I'll flog you again until your ass is burning and you're on fire with the need for relief. And then I'm going to f**k that ass. I'm going to take you hard and rough, to the very limits of what you can withstand. I won't be gentle. Not tonight. I'm going to take you as roughly as you can stand. And then I'm going to cum all over your ass. Are you ready to be completely and utterly dominated?"
Three years ago, Cecilia was left battered and alone by the man she loved most, Alston, yet she bravely completed the wedding ceremony while pregnant. Three years later, although they were married, they grew apart over time. Cecilia focused on her career, no longer foolishly believing in love. But her transformation instantly threw Alston into a panic... And what is the secret from 11 years ago that Cecilia has always been reluctant to reveal? *** "She went to a law firm, met with a lawyer..." A lawyer? Is Cecilia suing someone? Who? Is there any recent litigation against the company? Alston suddenly chuckled coldly, "Who could she sue? I'm the CEO of this company. How come such a matter doesn't come to me first?" The assistant swallowed nervously, speaking softly, "Sir, there's no litigation against the company. She met with... a divorce lawyer."
"You're a creepy bastard." His eyes smolder me and his answering grin is nothing short of beautiful. Deadly. "Yet you hunger for me. Tell me, this appetite of yours, does it always tend toward 'creepy bastards'?" **** Widower and ex-boss to the Mafia, Zefiro Della Rocca, has an unhealthy fixation on the woman nextdoor. It began as a coincidence, growing into mere curiosity, and soon, it was an itch he couldn't ignore, like a quick fix of crack for an addict. He didn't know her name, but he knew every inch of her skin, how it flushed when she climaxed, her favourite novel and that every night she contemplated suicide. He didn't want to care, despising his rapt fascination of the woman. She was in love with her abusive husband. She was married, bound by a contract to the Bratva's hitman. She was off-limits. But when Zefiro wanted something, it was with an intensity that bordered on madness. He obsessed, possessed, owned. There'd be bloodshed if he touched her, but the sight of blood always did fascinate him. * When Susanna flees from her husband, she stumbles right into the arms of her devilishly handsome neighbour with a brooding glare. He couldn't stand her, but she needed him, if she was ever going to escape her husband who now wanted her dead. Better the devil you know than the angel you don't. She should have recalled that before hopping into Zefiro's car and letting him whisk her away to Italy. Maybe then, she wouldn't have started an affair with him. He was the only man who touched her right, and the crazy man took no small pains in ensuring he would be the last.