MY KING AND MY PROTECTOR

Olivia's POV

I'd never do it.

This wasn't me.

Nah, no, nada, nil, zilch. It couldn't be me. I was the responsible one. The one always prepared, always early and on time. On weekdays, I worked my butt off at the diner and on weekends I stayed huddled up in the book store down the block.

That right there was the full autobiography of my life. Pretty basic and plain, and I was the last person you'd expect to worry about an accidental pregnancy. So why the hell did I just spend a hundred bucks on a box of target-brand pregnancy tests?

Three words.

I. Fucked. Up.

Rewind two months back to Pampam's bachelorette party and my insistence on staying home because attending a cock fest and seeing a bunch of naked penises writhing at me wasn't exactly on my to-do list, but Tonia being the persistent friend she was, didn't take no for an answer.

"There aren't going to be naked cocks, Olivia. It's a strip club, not pornhub." She reasoned, taking off my reading glasses. "Besides... It's not gonna hurt you to see some real-time peen."

And just like that, she'd dragged me out of the confines of my small condo, and made me put on a skimpy black dress that had me looking like Roxy the stripper.

But my point is, Tonia had pushed me into the domain of ripped, defined men pole-dancing, hip-grinding, booty-shaking.

Give it a few drinks or two and I was tipsy-not drunk but not exactly sober either, and to worsen my situation, this stranger in a dark suit kept staring at me with intrigue.

He sat alone at the bar, and fuck, even if I held his gaze, he still looked at me, one eyebrow arched and the corner of his mouth lifting in a sexy smile.

I'd spare you the candid details but I'd be evil if I didn't point out how hot he was.

Jesus forgive me but this man was a walking sexual fantasy and I took pleasure in gawking at him. He was fit and toned and had a body made for sex. The kind that could turn an uptight girl like me into a moron.

He was like a dangerous demon sent by Satan to give women impure thoughts. He might've been the devil himself and that night, I'd been his number one victim.

The memories manifested slowly, every detail flooding back like a heavy tsunami.

He approached me on the dance floor, handed me a shot of tequila, and then leaned into me. "Are you here with anyone?"

My brow rose with intrigue. "And why are you asking that?"

He looked at me for a second or two, and then his lips twisted with excitement. "Because I want to fuck you and I want to know if there's anyone to worry about."

Now, normally I wouldn't agree to this. I'd pour my drink on his face or slap him for asking such heinous things of me but he'd gotten me so hooked that I didn't mind being his fuck puppet for the night.

And so, we left the club, finding ourselves in a hotel room, too drunk to care about anything else but the heat of passion sizzling between us.

He'd slammed me against the bed, his lips fusing to mine, his hands doing ruin to my flesh, fingering out my first orgasm, and by the time he'd gotten up, rid himself of his pants and ripped a foil paper with his teeth, I'd already been lost.

He'd driven into me so hard that my eyes rolled back from sudden pleasure-so intense that I had turned mush against the bed, but he had elevated me back up and went again, hard, slow, fast, deep and in-between. He pleasured me with his fingers, his tongue, and his cock, and when it was all over, I collapsed into the bed, breathing out heavy breaths.

Granted, it had been the hottest experience of my life. But what were the odds that after having sex for the first time in months I'd wind up pregnant?

It had been over two months since I hooked up with him and frankly, I couldn't remember every detail, except for the ones I tucked away in my memory bank for safekeeping and only revisited on lonely nights when it was just me and my...you know...vibrator.

Aw fuck. You know what, maybe it was just a coincidence. I just needed to stop thinking the worst.

My period had only been delayed by a month and six days. No biggy. I had irregular period flows sometimes. It was due to stress. It had to be stress. There was no way I was pregnant.

I was just overeating and this test was going to give me the peace of mind I needed when it popped up with a big fat negative.

Counting to five in my head, I turned to the counter full of tests.

I'd flipped them all upside down, not wanting to look at them until the full amount of time had passed. You didn't need to tell me. I knew this was crazy, taking so many tests, and I still couldn't believe I'd spent so much on them all, but I was a realist and I had to be sure if there was a tiny life force inside of me or not.

My front door opened and then flung shut. "What is so important that you made me leave work and drive all the way over here?" My best friend, Tonia, waltzed into my apartment, speaking as soon as she stepped in.

I rushed out of the bathroom to meet her. "Great you're here. I was freaking the fuck out."

"What's wrong. What happened?"

"Well..." I pointed at the closed bathroom door. "I need you to look at something in there."

She stared at the door and then swung her gaze to me. Her brows furrowed. "Olivia, I'm sorry but I'm not going to look at your shit."

"Ew, what the fuck? no."

She sighed with relief. "Well then what?"

"Just come see." I pulled her with me and led her into the bathroom.

"There." I let her go and pointed to the pregnancy tests lined on the counter.

Long seconds dragged on as she stared at it, then at me. "What the hell is this?"

I bit my lip. "Just look at it and tell me what it says, please."

Again, she glanced between it and me, then said, "Okay hold up, is there something I'm missing. Why the hell do you think you might be pregnant?"

"For starters, I just figured I didn't bleed last month...and the one before that. "

"Isn't that too fictitious for you to start peeing on multiple sticks? I mean...it's natural." She shrugged. "You stress yourself a lot."

Trust me, I wanted...I so wanted to believe that was the case.

"This is different. It feels different." I pressed a hand against my chest and cringed a little. "My boobs hurt bad and they look bigger."

She sighed and pinched the bridge of her nose. "Sore breasts could mean you're about to start your period."

"It doesn't!" I panicked. "Please just check okay..."

"Fine." She rolled her eyes at me and narrowed it to the tests. "God...I can't believe I'm about to do this."

Reluctantly, she took a step forward and I turned my back to her, not wanting to accidentally see the results.

I nibbled on my lip nervously. For whatever reason, I felt certain that I would take the news better if it came from her. So I stood there and waited for her to either save my life or ruin it but the more she stayed silent, the more I got a little more anxious. "Please put me out of my misery and tell me what it says."

At this point, I couldn't tell if the lump in my throat was from nausea or panic. Probably both.

"Olivia..." She called me, her voice trailing off. "You're not gonna like this..."

Oh no no no no.

I held my breath, my heart pounding so hard in my chest that I could swear I heard it in my ears.

"It's positive."

My heart sank as I swiftly turned to face the test results staring at me. "I-I'm... pregnant? I'm...really... pregnant...?"

It felt as though life had been sucked out of me. I slumped down on my closed toilet seat and lowered my head in my hands.

I was pregnant...really pregnant for a...Oh god. I didn't know anything about him. Aside from his name and the fact that he fucked good, I didn't know him. I mean, what if he was a serial killer. Or he was in the mafia? What if he was already married with kids and a beautiful wife. Oh my god!

My heart felt like it was going to break through the safe confines of my rib cage. I sniffed, but it didn't work. Tears burned my eyes and I brawled.

Tonia crouched down beside me and patted my shoulders. "You need to calm down, Olivia. You're freaking out for no reason."

Now that was laughable. I sniffed and pulled my shirt up to wipe my nose. "At this point, I think I'm allowed to freak out. I got knocked up by a stranger I met in a strip club and I still don't even know why the hell a man like that was at a male strip club, to begin with."

God, I was such an idiot.

"Wait. Are you saying that super hot guy who talked with you at the bachelorette party is the father of your child?"

I felt sick again. "It sounds worse when you say it out loud."

"But I thought he used a condom, I mean you said he did."

"He did. I'm sure he did. I mean I saw a used condom on the floor." I turned to her. "Tonia he's the only guy I've slept with in months."

"Are you...keeping the baby?"

My chest felt tight.

Did I want this baby?

God, I'd never been so confused and conflicted in my entire life.

I didn't want to get rid of it but I didn't want to raise it on my own either because taking care of my own needs was enough struggle. I couldn't even afford my rent talk more of a baby, and the only thing keeping me from sleeping on the streets was my job at Joe's diner.

I took a sharp breath in, letting a few huddled tears fall. "I don't know what to do, I don't..."

"Oh, Olivia," Her arms went around me. "Whatever decision you make, I'll be by your side. If you choose to let it go, fine. If you choose to keep it, great. You'll make a perfect mother and I can't see any child raised by you turning out any less than amazing."

"You think so?" I sobbed out, clinging to her shoulder.

"I know so," she affirmed, tapping my back. "Now wipe your tears. You look ugly when you cry."

I bawled into even more tears, knowing she was right. "Thank you, Tonia."

"Don't thank me." She pushed the tendrils of my hair away from my sweaty forehead and tucked them behind my ears. "This is what friends are for."

I sniffed and wiped my eyes with the backs of my hand. Romance novels made it so easy but in reality, getting knocked up by a stranger sucked. "Where do I go from here?"

She took a huge breath. "Well I'm no pregnancy expert but I think you should let the baby daddy know."

My heart jumped, my stomach clasped and I felt like throwing up. Getting pregnant was the easy part- meeting him, breaking the news-I could never. I didn't even know where he lived. He could be dead or on the other side of the world for all I knew.

"Even if I want to, I can't. I don't know anything about him."

"I'll get the info for you."

"How are you going to do it?"

"I have a friend who knows someone who does these things." She got up. "I think you need some time to come to terms with this. And it's probably best if I leave you alone while you do so." She held my hand and squeezed softly. "I'm only a phone call away okay? If you need me, I'll be here, but for now, maybe a little quiet time will be best."

I sniffed and nodded. She made a logical point. "Thanks, Tonia. Thanks for coming over. I probably wouldn't have gathered enough courage to check what the stick said. I love you."

She smiled grimly. "You're a smart girl, I know you'll figure this out. And I love you, too."

Once the door closed behind her, I headed into my room, flopped onto the bed, and cried my eyes out.