I had been a good girl all my life, but today I was letting it go. I was going to become a woman; Cory's woman. As we gently got onto the bed, every part of my body became alert. I was on edge - I was scared but I liked what was happening.
I have never done this before and I wanted to save it for my wedding night, but Cory was getting impatient. After so many months of relentlessly pursuing me and 5 months of dating, he was beginning to get agitated that I wouldn't let us consummate our relationship, he gradually started to pull away from me.
I love Cory and I don't want to lose him, so on my 20th birthday which is today I decided to let him deflower me.
Every touch, and every kiss sent electrifying sparks through my body.
"Oh.." an involuntary moan escapes my lips. As he kisses my neck, I had no idea a kiss on the neck could make me that weak.
"What is he doing to me? It feels so wrong and yet so good.
He brought his lips back to my ears and whispered, "you're so beautiful, every part of you."
I blush in embarrassment as I lay there helplessly. I have no idea how to respond to what he's doing. He's working hard and I wish I knew how to reciprocate the gesture, but I just I lie down like a log.
He starts to tell me what to do, at first I'm confused but I start to get the hang of it and slowly I muster it.
I don't ask any questions, I just let him take control, without any qualms.
Everything we did that night he instructed me and it was my first time so I could use all the guide I needed.
I was getting tired of the gimmicks, I was ready to explore the main thing, naturally I'm impatient and Cory has been wasting my time, on all these theatrics I don't want it anymore. I just want the experience.
"Cory! Just do it please." I cry.
But then instead of pleasure, all I feel is pain
"Ouch!" I yelp in pain so he suddenly stops.
"Sorry," he mutters.
I can feel his disappointment, I don't intend to leave him hanging like that so I mutter,
"Don't stop please."
"But you're in pain," he protests.
"Yes but don't stop." I say to him, I'm afraid that if we don't do it tonight he will start to pull away from me again and I can't stand it, anytime he does that it breaks my heart.
He tries again, he does it for a while and despite the painI urge him to continue. I yelp and clutch my pillow so tightly that it looks like I'm suffocating myself.
Then suddenly I can feel it inside of me, it's painful yet sweet. It goes on and on for a while but suddenly he stops, I stare at his face but he doesn't look happy like he did from the start.
"Why" I ask, "why will you stop just when you're finally there."
"So you're a virgin." He exclaimed. But he's still not looking excited. I can't tell what's wrong with him.
I'm confused about his reaction, "I never said I wasn't."
"But you didn't tell me."
"You never asked." I snapped back, what about my virginity was making him so angry? I never knew being a virgin was something to be mad about.
"I hate the sight of blood, this is why I don't like virgins."
"Blood? Which blood?" I examined the sheets and there was barely any blood, just a very tiny dot. It's so tiny that it is barely even visible. I sigh and roll my eyes.
"Let me wash it." I said getting up to go and get some paper towels and soap from my bathroom. I just want him to continue. He had already broken my virginity, stopping midway was unacceptable.
He grabbed the towels from me and wiped it but still wouldn't continue.
"Why?" I cried in frustration. He had intruded into my body making me hungry for more just to stop, "this is what you have been asking for for months. Why are you leaving me halfway now?"
He shook his head, "I'm sorry Alison this isn't working."
"What? What are you talking about?" I blinked. I was a bit confused by his statement.
"This whole relationship." He said. "It was a mistake. A mistake I shouldn't have made."
I froze by the bed and watched as he put his clothes back on. My mouth went dry suddenly and my heart was beating wildly, what was he talking about?