years l

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me back! I want my mom

sweaty a

am over

dreams, but I didn't und

eople?' I questioned

d over to my left and chec

gh

ainst going back to sleep. Getting u

ashed my hands, staring at t

ok my

wavy hair gave this look of an island girl. Luscious full lips and a body I worked my ass off for. But, it helped a lot

rom Alicia?' I questi

he room, I walked past the queen size bed unt

t so mess

the room and g

y room li

verything in place, but the next da

ghost in my room that

that would come and grab whate

Liz,

eady for the day. I went to check my telephone and r

of an or

hone, I see I have a messa

saying I wan

t loud & tex

again, and if she does, the

-ha, funny, so how's d

who they were and dad's fine. That

ove you! You are my baby sister and I am so glad that mom and dad adopted you. I am alway

e you guys too, and Rya

or a reply but

ough they treated me like I was one of the family and more, I just never felt like I belong wit

was happy having a sister, Brad thought I was

d at what their parents did

thing about my past. But all dad would do was kiss my for

ms of people screaming and blood that haunted my n

tight while dad stands by the d

and took turns sleeping next to

ist. I would lay there "expressing", wh

anaged to push them to the back of my mind

ale skin, and dirty blonde hair and I stuck out like

oven me wrong. I felt love and care from the Washingtons and

our, worked as a mechanic. Liz and I are both twenty-one, Liz w

became an a full-time job I

it, I checked

n the

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groc

plus check out the cute hottie wo

ing your face

visit

Mom passed away a year ago from breast cancer. W

't think he processed that she was gone. He would drink mo

w she would wake us up for school or how she would force us to take a family photo together. Even when she was on chemo,

emories will al

etting wet so I wiped the

while searching for my studded flats. I ge

f, grabbed the envelope where I placed all my ear

living. They weren't rich, they were normal people,

th mirror I took a doub

adies, tell him. I woke up like..um I did not wake up like t

hit my nostrils. "Damn it Liza, nobody g

ss the living room and down the narr

ughed. "Liza, what the heck are you doing

a toothy grin. "Maybe, maybe not. You'll have

oos on her body and long killer legs, her sassy and classy attitude made her stand out more. You can say

he burning pan and placed

o me, we do not want to get food po

it is'. I examined it closely and yup! It was one of her own creatio

i, last night's leftover dinner all in a blender and pureed it. I

had pasta last night, Liz. Ho

, "Well, it's all en

Why cannot you just eat cere

ant to be in the kitchen or near anything flammable. She's your blonde bombshell that all men fell for. I told her that it was alr

some. I got eggs, buttermilk, and flour. Whipped them toge

nd placed all the dirty plates in the sink. I went back and star

e sexy coffee guy. I shook my thou

e plate that Liz had already designed with strawberries. Turning around, I

ock said it was 8:00 clock, I heard

as still in his sweats, white tee, plus barefoot. He pulls his chair out and sits. "Thank go

muscular, I was surprised at the amount of food he would eat without gaining a pound. W

ere taller than me in this house. I was just a bit short, and

s at him and continues eating while mumbling to himself. Liz pours coffee in a mug and hands it to him, places a

h. "So, you just gonna drink away your life, not acknowl

have that conversation tonight, I thought to myself. "

her was my everything and she left me. You will all soon leave to go on with your lives, And I will lack one. We planned how you all would come visit us when we are olde

Brad covered his face with his hair and I knew well that he was c

visit mom after breakfast. None of us have anything to do until noon. We can all say what's ins

s time, " Brad said while look

all got up and went to get ready. After 20 minutes we we

loud, I rubbed his shoulders because I was sitting behind him. I saw Liz grab

of us parking his bike and holdin

behind him, Liz grabs my hand and holds it tig

an and Liz did not accept that mom was gone, I mean they knew, but never expressed

found release in his cries and made peace with knowing that mom may have

remble in mine. I squeezed her hand and pulled

loving m

ou left your mark on this Fam

t living

nks it's ok. I know he's hurting, but we are all in the same boat. He still has us, we will not leave him. Just tell him to stop, come, and strangle him in his dreams and tell him to individual the fuck up. He wants us to live without the both of you around. I do not want to bury him next to jus

but Brad pulls me back. She's wrapped her arms around the headstone and cries. All you can hear were whispers of sorry. She placed a

I, still crying her heart out. I placed my han

you are fading away. I do not want you to start fading. I see you in our girls, I see you in every corner of the house. But time goes by and slowly you are fading. I feel that soon everyone in that house will leave. They will eventually go on with their lives and I

hurting more than all of us. And I couldn't do a damn thing

dad, not now not ever." I tightened my arms

ks to Ali, Mel. She always knows what to say at the right time, " He moves his head to the side and loo

ey do not know I come often and rant about ea

from a nightmare. I would bring your sweater and lay it near me so I can hold it tight. I imagine you brushing your fingertips in my hair and soothing me. A form of peace comes over me. And I know i

ose him, " I said while

on mom's headstone. We all stared and watched how