lids; my thick eye lashes prevented from more light entrance into my eyes. All these blinding photons of light are forming a new sympho

ed to the ceiling. So many symphonies and shades of white crossed me and ga

rept out of bed my warm bed and staggered towards the bathroom. I slowly brushed my teeth and combed my hair. I knelt down to my suit cases and took out a fresh Kurta suit. My luggage was so less as compared to when I was going to America. I took al

now. I'm glad that he didn't give me anything that would constantly remind me of him. i had given him a wrist band which he

or else I will go crazy. I cannot lose my

is early in the morning, Harris would wake up late and I would prepare breakfast for the family. The marble floor was cold and so were the beautiful beige colored porcelain walls. My eyes vie

d smile. I would hate to be the bearer of bad news, but I must dismiss the remaining se

I touched her shoulder softly and dismissed her. I wasn't hungry in the least though I was feeling physical

ght was strong and regenerated my skin and face. The breezes swept my face and my loose hair and I noticed that they shone brightly. I'm happy to see no snow for a change despite loving snow but now I know how it feels like t

ter. The water tasted so sweet and refreshing-for some rea

ded. I felt excited all of a sudden, as if I almost wanted him to com

rushed to hug her. "You look g

uch baita." She said. I smiled

sat down. I shrugged. "Just last night; ho

ded. However, you should have told me that you were coming." I sm

discuss a few things with you." I started. She looked a little nervous. "

uch do you remember?" she grumbled and placed her hands on

remember e

nt you to tell me what had happened the night that they died be

But when I told you that they have died and I took you to see their bodies, you broke down again and this time, you were insane with guilt. You kept blaming yourself that you killed them and you wouldn't stop but then one day, you finally stopped and you wouldn't sleep or eat or do anything, all you would

ental and emotional trauma, it worked and you were able to forget and you went back to normal but we were also told that the same mental trauma or emotional outburst could cause you remember again and we were also warned from telling you a

that you remembered everything." She told. I swallowed

." I responded straightforwardly. Now I have a few more things to take care of. Zainab baji want

Kashif and Anjum died in the fire, he lost all his wits. He's bed ridden for now with depression, reflecting on what he's done to so man

e left after an hour. I walked to my garden and stared at the neigh

you feeling? Sorry, university just held me up." She told. "Which Uni did you joi

Sorry that I didn't tell

ointed at the house by jerking my chin. She was si

But I know what I did and what happened with me after the accident." I said a

to Yale University a m

hat had happened which caused me to commit a sin as ig as havin

or NUST still on?" I asked to take my mind

re. . . why

d for the door. "It's after Christmas, but why do you want to give the test,

e please." I beseeched. "Wait, maybe you could explain yourself toni

re I'll

hen. I remember that I was first told that I would have to be married into the Atish family this April after my finals were over. I remember that I had met The Chairman and uncle Mansoor (Shehzad's father) here at Karachi. I was completely shocked that my own father wanted me to marry a man who lived abroad and was spoiled and maybe corrupt-which I was right about in the present. In rebelli

g the very nature of my thinking scheme. And if I'm correct, maybe I was only brassy on the outside a

didn't work out because I was the one who always took it too seriously. I was always

-going against Islamic commandments and disobeying my parents landed me in t

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la's mother gushed and hugged me tightly. I hugged her back.

e." She initiated. Shumaila led me to

ructed. I frowned. "Brother?" I whispered to Hina. I can recall t

hat he's back. I have had a crush on him since I was thirteen; but when he left for PMA five years ago. I was relieved that he was gone but hurt too-I liked him so much. I

a

sexy and alluring voice and see a pai

an. I must block him out-why is my mind trying to sho

. I was sort of relieved with that. "Oh ho, too bad." Her mother excla

ca?" Auntie inquired. I swallowed

your husband also be joinin

ck for good now." I replied. She se

make out an understanding. I will be gettin

happens with people like that. W

ing all at once." Shumaila cut i

and Hina dragged me up s

ivorce to my parents like that?" Shumaila burst. I remained composed though I was also

" I replied and sat on the bed. All of a sudden, I felt moisture on my cheeks. I

now and their reactions were just the way th

ave a gem like you." Hina said. I shook my head

with it. From now on, you can rely on us." Shu

f when I saw Ahmad Bhai standing in the hall way busy on the phone. When he saw me, he quickly hung up and beamed at me. I was stunned t

e asked. I tried smiling d

he Army treating you?" I asked. Shumaila and H

e said wholeheartedly. My smile vanished. I felt awkward becau

and lie to his face. I just couldn't allow myself to straightforward

bed. Today was so weird. But at least

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esults were announced two days later. I couldn't believe that time was passing by but I couldn't stop myself from thin

d the tears would follow suit. I'm sure that he wouldn't be thinking anything of me.

cause was admitted in NUST, I would have to attend university in Islamabad so I decided to shift there and giv

y strange letter. It looked like a letter from a bank. I couldn't understand anything th

tter very carefu

given a deadline for a loan that needs

hat kind

received a loan of two billion rupees.

he sky had fallen on my head and the

t has happene

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