ole life, something that drove every bone in my body, it was the sole purpose behind every single thing that I did. I always belie
ty-five I am told that I can no longer serve. I am on a bus back home now, to say that I am not dev
when he wanted me to become a doctor and now I am going to disappoint him again. Not like this is something I could have controlled. The thing that is going to be the hardest is that th
already see the heads turning. This is such a small place, b
exactly wh
t through the front gate. "Clay, my god you are home. Why did you
ny little hugs, I can barely utter a word. "Mom, does
squeezes me for
that he can, nothing near as warm as a hug but a firm handshake. "You know how t
s as she is still squeezing me firm. "Come, let your
t girlfriend is in the loun
y things like that",
l five cents worth in. "Denice the child has a different girl
e he is young. Not like Clay here that ha
is not done yet. "I still say you should have become a
nto the kitchen to go make us some coffee. I sneak
s around in his chair to
I hear mom says you
ands up from the couch. "Clay, bro, what a
e old man is going to fl
ot kicked out?", he
say I sor
from the cold but from the excitement he perceives is about to happ
bout what the old la
ave not heard from you s
xt to him cannot hear. I watch him as his face goes pale and his
what happened? You g
t joke about s
ck the tears. "Mom is going to be
ot want the old lady to stress. You know how she can
you going
few months and
age. I am tired of this shithole anyway." He chu
l?", I desperately try
he moved into to
not waste any time. W
her for me",
hing but trouble?", I
only get from a naughty school girl. "
the bad boy of the town but then
man in uniform", She w
ts up as he gets an idea. "Bro, c
hit and I break
girls you will get if you wear that shit? You might
my curiosity. "Who i
go. She has not spoken to an
perty, she gets the grocer to de
Snob to me", is the first t
t I said", Elle agre
ath just throw it out there that you are in the Marines", Matt tries to en
erything to get laid",
s", Elle slaps him
into the lounge. "
hrough my mind is "Please don't touch me, just don't touch me." But she just casu
nge. "By the weight of that
seen that everything I own is in there. What could n
ell you guys", I get the courage to tell them
of the fucking Marines!" My dad do
mom has to repr
s done nothing wrong. "I told him he should
nk whatever he wants. He is the most hard-headed man I know, bumping heads with him is like trying
sgraced me, Clay. I a
long before he is going to sh
what happened", my mom takes my side against him.
I speak again. "Yes I do mom but it is not
me a doctor. You are still young",
day and then the next. I will tell
is not like you
ots my dad a look that I sure can almost
d snap to the left. "It is fine mom, if you will excuse m
ke you up
get up and leave the lounge. The truth is, I a
ck my bag, I discover that even my old clothes from when I was eighteen are still hanging in here. Mom has always
, I get ready to lay down on the bed for a few hours.
u some extra blankets", my
them from her. "
Don't worry about your dad,
r the covers. I soon drift off t
.
llets fly over my head. "We are u
cover us as best as he can. "I can't go back!
rive!" I order the soldier to get us out of the range of the fire
enough. "This truck won't make it on this dirt road so fast.
gunfire that is now coming in fast. "Just
losion, the tuck flips and
er as my body as thr
soldier tries t
utter. My head is still zinging f
ou oka
tion but my first instinct is the safet
going to have to make it out
e out of her
pull me out. "I can
t him in shock as I realized my leg is st
?" The soldier looks
y fucking leg." There are fear and a
.
a panic and
the same it has been every day since then. The pain that I felt after that surgery was wor
y. My leg. I am supposed to be a hero but I am not, I am a broken man. Nobody wants a broken man, they need a hero. A broken man does