pte
i
ion was ly
ow, a woman who looked like she'd just won the lottery-not a brokenhearted
ur age...You don'
read out over time; where my lips would eventually thin out and dissolve into my mouth. So far I'd been lucky, but
tioning everything I'd ever done, comparing myself to all my friends, and wondering if I would ever find mo
in five years and pursue my
ds and start making larger m
ng so many ro
my daughters on a week-l
ential wrinkle-lines an
from top to bottom
yself for my ex-h
best friend for being
to a new restaur
to be ha
to be late!" My friend San
grabbed my jacket an
't believe I'd agreed to let her drag me out to another singles mixer. I never found anyon
d at my strapless black dress. "C
can borrow
imism as usual. "Tonight is the night y
ays say
r one of these things, Sands? I ha
re you out of your mi
ings and it's always the same...Can't we just stay
"We're going out. Now. You don't have any work to do an
––
o my plate. I looked up at the banner that hung over the bar and sig
be desired: Surfboards served as table tops, old park benches were strewn abou
reader: The guy standing by the window was at least sixty, the blond hair dye he'd been using to look twenty years younger was beginning to fade. The woman who was dancing again
there.
ir and clothes like nervous high school students. Most of them were being forced to
e and sat on an empty couch, observing one m
n with grey eyes smiled at me, inte
, it's
t his beer on the table. "I
Via Do
me. What do you do
tor for a software com
"I own and manage a beer compan
e," I said. "So
u, if you don't
ere we
y-nine, an
and down. "I'm forty seve
smiling. "Two
e's way too short for that-no o
se days? Age? Kids? Phone number? I
I forced a s
etly-stealing-beer-out-of-your-cabinet-while-you're-gone-age'? I have to be frank with you
p. "I have to go to the re
watching the ripples of the Pacific Ocean swell up and down. I took a deep breath and inhal
easingly rubbing his shoulder and biting her lip. She caught me starin
ound and ro
ng a good time?" A husky v
t to engage in any more pointless conversations o
in two weeks. I've been divorced for fou
se. I turned to my left and saw t
helping myself by pushing every potential suitor away, but I cou
tsburgh neighborhood in the suburbs, amazing career that was almost on the brink of being legendary-but then
ned, and I was the one who e
for the parking lot, turning down nu
t the door. "We've only been here twenty minutes! Don't
N
e guy you were talking to in
hese things expecting to meet the love of my life. I met mine
seat and forced a
he divorce was long over, but the pain still woke me up some nights, still drag
he handed me a Kleenex. "You have to stop beati
let her in my house! I trusted her with my
sorry,
––
t me wrong, it wasn't entirely perfect, but we had far more amazing days
the little things that made me happy: Hot coffee on the rainy days I spent typing away in our home office, a warm blanket when