n't need any pills lately, I was okay, I was surviving. Maybe having Riley in my life isn't a bad thing at

ccident with him lately. Maybe I'll be able to survive th

, just hanging around when

een to a pa

..no wh

icky neve

say and sh

we'll dance together" ~Riley says and get closer to me, he's close enough to k

never allow me

I promise i, I really promise t

try"

l party I never been to one before, maybe I can tell my grand

ead. Is it a risk worth taking, I'll be with Riley maybe

m. I'm still having nightmares but I make sure not to

ck I'll enter through the back door. Grandpa make sure to lock the doors at night but I'll leave it open when I go to throw t

it. What if he want us to be more than just friends. W

ing when I got in his car, he was so excited that he hug

y I get butterflies when I'm close to Riley or when

es I'll look like an idiot who never been to a party before. D

e closer thing I own to be sexy or party appropriate. I go through dinn

o my room, I lock my door and get dressed. I open my window and make sure to keep it open just in case, I

down a tree, it's slippery, so dark that I can't see a thi

hink I just hurt my knees. I limp away from my house, we p

tep in only to be en

. I thought you ch

made i

music, underage kids drinking alcohol from red cups and some mak

and we walk in as a couple, are

omething in it, I take a sip a

I ask close to his

drink" he sa

Riley made me dance with him it was super awkward since I didn'

him toward his bedr

ng fun Ni

party" I s

ll me close to him, he cup my face

's showing me that he's in charge

up my ass, I try to move bac

to be touched like that, Riley paid me no attention and j

t he's too busy he's ge

me with all my force

when you figh

un toward the door, he grab me from behind and grin

ake me feel Nicky"

s streaming down. I almost got raped, I run through the people and hear R

iend Jackson! God th

e here to begin with. He nods and lead me out toward his motorcycle, we don't bother with helmets, we j

ught he w