es me go out to the clubs on the weekends. She is stylish, leggy, and flashy-all things I'm not. Stunning. Instantly,

, "Listen, Ash, it's not what you think." Still erect and bou

Why would you mention Avery's name as

not sure

ing a bed with he

n't stomach the men I dated, so I was probably too pleased when they clicked right away-it was a first. I th

me, he crushed my soul and returned it back to me in shattered pieces. It n

It's just a waste of time. Yo

here!" I scream as I

n in bed the rest of the night sobbing uncontrollably. My life's foundation had been our connection, and now that it has crumble

ss fuck he represented it to be. It has never been. Evidently, I'm the only lady in his group who he hasn't had a sexual encounter with. Mel, my economics study companion, was

would have taken my virginity and then departed. I'm too devastated

never his exclusive girlfriend brings me to a new low. My virginity, a triumph, was the lowest

ldn't go away even after daybreak. It takes me back to that dark place where my darkest fears reside. I had been deceiving myself into thinking I could blend in and be g

s, the ones who had been extending their legs for him, since I had just

limsy. I warned you to avoid guys, didn't

mocking grin that stuck in my mind. My worth is being criticized by her remarks, whi

inic and Avery did to me is something I'll never forget. In fact, it's the main component of the heart

nd it seems that the nearby "friends" aren't committed enough to do so. Dominic and I have the same friends,

f that I'm not lonely. But that does not imply that it is

n't pals. They make fun of me for being so naive to believe Dominic would have chosen a girl like me. The new Ashley understands they're saying the t

I would hang out with them and provide a hand; they were a significant portion of my college experience. They all regard me as if I had the plague

untain in the center of campus. Avery, who has a snobby and delighted smile, is leaning on

s hidden behind my hair and pressing my fingertip on the bridge of my spectacles to move it up my nose. When

erhaps