lier, I went to the bathroom to freshen up while Jamie served himself a portion of the meal I had prepared. When I returned to the kitchen, I tidied up the mess we had made and fixed myself a small plate of food. I did

ct back on our early marriage days. Where we couldn't stop calling one another husband and wife, smiles forever took place on our faces. A warm feeling began to spread through my body as the memories of us consumed me. My first and last love My first and last love Smiling slightly,

nded up with Jamie taking me against the shower wall and coming inside my womb. Afterward, the night ended with us making love in our bedroom again. Jamie

yet to close my eyes. I wanted to ensure he was in a deep slumber before I got up. I slowly began to shimmy my way out of his embrace, slowly easing him out of my botto

ed out. I breathed a sigh of relief and walked my way to the bathroom down the

twenty-nine-year-old. Glancing down at my collarbone and arms, it was clear to anyone with eyes that I was skinny. I was losing weight steadily, and my collarbone wa

ing to think a

orange container called Fluoxetine, I opened the container and took out two small tablets. I didn't spare a second to ponder my decision before swallowing the pills dry. Like usual,

ed from me. Here I am, defying my loving husband. Knowing that if Jam

th a finished plate of this morning's breakfast. I was sipping casually on his coffee while my heart beat faster in panic. I took a deep breath to cal

eak." I jumped as he slamm

me and then took a deep breath to calm himself down. "I want a baby-our baby, Eunice whispered at the end in sadness. The feelings of guilt swirled in the pit of my

etting disappointed. I'm tired of taking pregnancy tests, and they come back negative. And as much as I love making lov

o go through this and they can tell us what's wrong." He fought again

amn near begged him. Hopefully, by then, I can come up with a better excuse. I stood in silence as my husband thought about what I said. The gears in his mind spun. I know it's horrible of me to

ne

his glare turning to me made me

the conversation again. We will be seeing that doctor, Eunice. An

ce him. He had a look on his face that I knew all too well, causing me to roll my eyes. Luckily, he did not see. I bent down to undo his uniform belt and glanced at the clock. He had

fused look still on my face, he spoke again

hought y

as he said by lifting up my nightgown and pulling down my pants. I glanced at his hard, glistening tool that shone with cumin just as he pushed his chair back

his own. I slowly began moving up and down, setting our love-making pace and tone. For a while, Jamie let me take control as I faked small moans from my lips. That was, until Jamie decided what I was giving wasn't enough. He quickly took a h

scape my husband's lips as he seeks out his own pleasure. I, on the other hand, chose to let my mind get cloudy as I dreamed of a new life. Once, there were no expecta