ac
ight to my core. The Suburban had hit another deep pothole on the disused loggin
ve the fact that my stepbrothe
way before returning to whatever he was doing on his ce
long time ago. Right about the time of my fifteenth birthday, in fact, when I to
njoying the untouched wilds of Canada every yea
il
ly from the front seat. It must've been the thousandth time she sai
ly at his mother. "You're right
. He knew I hated it, so Caleb took grea
two days, you mean,
"Yeah, that's
knew this. I'd memorized the fact
orgot it. Every year. I'm not even sure
ful for the solidarity. My dad had more of
phone. I hated that we were seated hip-to-hip. I hated th
sted with desire every time I
hat was shaved up the back but left short and loose
ody to
at, he was
a
e'd even bee
ubby fifteen-year-old with untamable black hair, he'd gone cold. Luckily, he'd also
ole, and I would have landed in Caleb's lap had I not been weari
No getting around that one," my
on had me glancing dow
was on h
s nearly on the f
e sighed, rubbing my father's arm. "Yo
ded with a grimace. He ga
?" I
ing your hand someday?" Ca
as still hanging onto his thigh, stil
snatching my hand back. "
and raised his phone agai
There isn't even a signal out here," Jeanie admo
" Caleb
ion to me. "Jacey, is he
anie putting ME in
the better of me, and I gla
anything at all. Much to my surprise, except for l
ow at me, challenging
wasn't g
. He's losin
etter," Caleb said, casua
locked the screen s
can do better...'" my f
ed in. "'Sooner or late
nd Jeanie w
othache," Caleb said, fini
ed my thumb over Caleb's screen as tho
not have mad
face was crowding mine, hi
went the z
u told Caleb you were in love with him?" my
and leaned against my own door, putting as much space b
d, making desperate
ensitivity as a fencepost. "That would have been
ole to be big enough to sw
d forth. "It was just a silly childhood crush. They would never
probably red as an apple, if the h
Caleb, certain he mu
ee his hands balled into fist
ster. Ewww, right Jac
ght," I s
der than was necessary. But I think all of us, ex
steering wheel as the large moose weaved its way through the trees. When it moved, we
ndid her
napped to her. "Wh
ke a picture, sill
ed it closed again. "The hell you are. That thing's a killer. Oh, it might look cute, but t
o you really think that's appropriat
n in two days!" my
"Don't worry. He said a lot worse when
nie said, s
d-new net, and the fish was a mons
and on Caleb's knee as the Suburban started back down the
bled. "It's going to be
this trip, including most of our equipment and your fishing license.
b's teeth grind a
atest trip ever!" Caleb s
glad you could come this year, Caleb, Jeanie. Jacey and I wou
swatted his arm. "Behave!
nd looked back
ogle Caleb's profile. Sure, I would never touch him. He'd certainly made
y face, Jacey?" Caleb fin
was caught.
and take in the sights? It's real
staring out my window until I felt like
noises at each other, and I sighed to mysel
lf." Of course, I'd always suspected she left because she had a chubber of a baby who grew into a c
autiful. Me? I wasn't as chubby as I had been, but I still had a fuller figure than most girls. My boobs were too big,
d it would wipe away some of the fat there. No m
as though he was having one of his rare moments of empathy. "I
seat pocket in front of me, regretting the Snickers I'd eaten
o stop my hands from chaffing my jeans. "You
ather, and back again, curiosity cloudin
a little eating disorder. Ev
cried, scandali
ed, and I didn'
initely going to b