s marriage doesn't happen bec
e heir. Many rules had been abolished but still, women ha
. They still hadn't had the reproductive rights, or to be free from sexual violence. They had to be kept quiet about the abusive relationship that hid under th
usehold, and one sole purpose was to please their husband, even when
if their husband allowed it. Women still had to submit themselves to
Now we could have our own lands but my father wasn't that considerate enough to give me the privilege to be an owner of any land. He had still despised the new rules as he thought a woman should not get their small heads into those matters because those aren't something that a delic
of my father. My mom was probably the second wife and she died while giving birth to me. I didn't have any knowledge about my birth mothe
m to marry higher-ups, this event was different for me. While they did home-schooling, I cooked breakfast for the en
d to clean clothes. My skin got rash
ne big hall and a big kitchen, I had to work from morning to midnight just so the house could look like a general's house. My father was an well-known and respectfu
the household would come and say 'A female has to take all the sufferi
or other male figures. We are the "variation" and not worthy in our own right of a title. We are a "gift to men" rather than vice versa. We are so often defined by what we give others rather than as worthy in our own right as individuals-often as good wives, mothers and daughters.
we ha
g body, I went to clean, wash and make meals for the household-that house that never belonged to me a
n end in this household as every female needed to be
fficial of Kosaki. Many well known superior categories of the country wanted to marry his da
off to higher officials and only my father,
lance at me. I was an unnecessary responsibility for him so he had to find
rn. Before he could find one, he married another mistress
s everything, he was desperate to have a son to carry his legacy. I knew he wanted a son because that way he could remain in the official army uno
o appeared before him. Not for marriage, however. It
e a life. Not everyone
own man without love. I had never asked
me for who I am not for just a mere token but