i

s end u

east it feels t

utter emptiness. But they're wrong. Grief is full. It's fucking heavy.

o matter where you go. A weight so heavy that so

suffo

uture will no longer contain. The

not the case at all. All that happens is the space between the times when you miss them starts to

like it. Not one

, the guilt creeps in. The guilt consumes you because yo

econd during a twenty-four-hour day without thinking ab

ne big repe

pain throughout my life but gri

down onto my desk, I shake my head, tryin

I know my parents loved me and my siblings with the

traighten my suit jacket, turning around to

ntly were only a few months apart from one another in age. It works out tha

change point." He says and I nod my head slowl

ns?" I ask and h

st wanted to confirm with you befor

nto my pocket to pull out a cigarette. "Get it

way. With a sigh, I exit my office too, heading down the hallway and

greets with

nd give her a sma

sks and I shake my head, watching as she off

ng along with a mixture of a bark and a growl caught my attention. Soon enough

now. Well, I say rescued but I just went in there and

and I reluctantly gave in and allowed her. Little did

he name. I guess he didn'

reet him as I quick

ate: he

owners. They apparently were going to start using him for illegal fighting

took home a lot more than I had originally bargained for. However, Six has been

ook him home, but after a lot of extensive training with the bes

mastiff and only girl, Zeus is a Rottweiler and the oldest out of the pack. O

usehold and lifestyle, so having those eight dogs roaming

ide of the house. With my cigarette still in hand, I reach into my pocket an

o. New York has always been my home and I love it here.

er day for me to make some good money, even better pr

ion for the day when I eventually took over from him. I looked up to him a considerable amount and adm

rity and as a growing teenager, that

ith each person they had any sort of connection to. They were well respe

take everything I've learned over the years and put t

d chances lightly. Not everyone deserves them,

in my life that I trust; m

so I can't exactly tell her every single detail of any dealings that I have. But I know that if

so much faith in him and know at the end of the day, he'll always make the right decisi

But in all honestly, to say either of those things about me would

I've been through, I'd like to think I have eve

r witnessing something so horrific, gives me that r

men patrolling the grounds, walking i

heir attention back to me. "Uh, I think he's

" I instruct. "We ha