r couldn' t afford. My father, who had left us for h
tried to sell her kidney on the black market.
before I finally succumbed to th
er that his new family had expenses, handing h
urteen again, healthy, watching
me, expecting me t
ll have to choose who
my mother' s broken body. I met her tea
oose
pte
eat. The second time I opened my eyes, I was fourteen again, listening to th
illness. My father, Clifton Daniels, left my mother, Edna Brown, with nothing but me. He cut her off completely. For him,
degree, no recent work experience. She took on three jobs-cleaning houses during the day, waiting tables at night, and
expired food from the discount bin and wore clothes from donation boxes. The hunger was a constant, du
the scene with a clarity that still felt like a shard of glass in my gut. She had knelt on the cold, polished floor of his opulent office, her voice cracking as she pleaded for her daughte
n't enough. N
black market. She was scammed, left bleeding in a back alley with noth
was t
it was the
one we lived in before the divorce. Sunlight streamed through the living room window, illuminatin
arents. The divorce papers were spread on the cof
ce tight with impatience. "There' s nothing
king sobs of someone whose world was collapsing. Her shoulders t
whispered. "Don' t do
future that hadn't happened yet. My mother' s hands w
And I had a chance to stop t
But it wasn't the heart of a fourteen-year-old girl. It was the heart of a twenty-some
doesn' t fill your stomach. The o
otesque, a betrayal of everything a daught
cold. "It' s about me. It' s about Karel. I love h
t from a poor family, unsuitable. He had arranged Clifton' s marriage to my mother, Edna Brown, a gentle, kind woman from a respectable, if not wealthy, family. She was meant to be a placid, suitable wife for
ave, Clifton was finally free to chase the ghost of his first love. He was
was barely audible. "Fifteen y
liberated. He couldn' t wait to get out of this house, away from this
look of paternal concern. It was a look I knew was utterly fake.
your mother and I... we just can' t be together anymor
rything so much cleaner for him. A clean break. He could pay his child support, see me on weekends, and
with tears but also with a desperate, clinging hop
bered the cold. The hunger. The feeling of the hospital sheets, thin and scratchy
t happen again. Not
, a knot of grief and self-loathi
se Dad,"
in the air, hea
hat followed
e, his jaw slack.
hope in her eyes flickered and died, replaced by a look
nd steady. I had to be strong. I h
," I repeated, my voi
e swayed on the sofa, her hand flying to her c
pered, her voice a thr
ned expression. I leaned down, my face close to
r chest. "I don' t want to be poor. I don' t want to starve. I don' t want to
e everything, just like before. This way, she would be free of the burden of a child
up and looked
o go when you
it was quickly replaced by a wave of relief so profound it was almos
"Alright then. Go pack a bag, Blake. Just the ess
call, already moving on. He didn' t
breathing filling the silence. I could feel her pain like a ph
urn around.
t her face, I
om, my movements stiff and robotic. Behind me, I heard a low,
price of ou