He had been gone for six months. Six months of whispers-rumors that his heart lay elsewhere, in the North, with someone who held his attention while I waited in silence. The wedding had been set for last spring. Then, without explanation, he had postponed it. A "delay due to unrest," his letter claimed. But everyone knew the truth: Alpha Darius Vanderbilt did not want to marry Alys Kensington. He was bound to me by treaty, and he was dragging his feet at every opportunity.
He was flanked by two guards, their faces grim and weathered. Darius himself looked carved from the northern mountains he commanded. His dark hair was dusted with grime, his military coat marked by a long journey.
My family stood in a respectful line. My father, Richard Kensington, at the head. My mother, Catherine, beside him. As his fiancée, I was positioned at the very front, my smile a brittle mask.
I had spent six months telling myself this time would be different. That he would finally see me. That I would walk into this hall and feel hope, not dread.
I was a fool.
Darius's ice-blue eyes swept across the welcoming party. They passed over my father with a flicker of acknowledgement, over my mother with cool respect, and then... slid over me. Nothing. No recognition. The look one gives to a piece of furniture.
The sting was immediate and sharp. After six months of silence, after making me wait for a wedding he clearly had no intention of attending-how dare he look through me as if I were invisible?
Anger flared, hot and sudden, but I swallowed it down. My hands trembled with the effort.
And yet, beneath the anger, a strange, unsettling familiarity washed over me. The way his eyes skipped over me, the precise tilt of his head-it was as though I had stood in this exact moment before. The memory was hazy, like a dream I couldn't grasp, but it left a hollow ache in my chest.
The anger warred with that ache. I wanted to scream at him. I wanted to demand why he kept me dangling. I wanted to weep.
I did neither. I smiled.
I forced my hands to unclench. My nails had dug crescents into my palms.
"Richard," Darius said, his voice a low baritone devoid of emotion. He nodded to my father. "The skirmishes in the Redwood sector have been contained. Their supply lines are cut."
"Excellent news," my father replied. "Your efficiency is, as always, unparalleled."
They discussed troop movements and border patrols. I was left standing there, a decorative statue. The perfect, silent fiancée. I could feel the pitying glances of the household staff on my back.
Pity. That was what I had been reduced to. The humiliation burned, but I held my ground. I would not give them the satisfaction of seeing me crumble.
I dropped my gaze to the marble floor, focusing on the patterns to keep myself grounded. My fingers found the moon-shaped silver pendant at my neck.
Finally, their discussion wound down.
"I will be departing tonight," Darius announced. "I must return before the first heavy snows block the northern pass."
The air shifted. Even my father looked surprised. A visit this brief was an insult.
And there it was. The second blow. He was leaving tonight-barely hours after arriving. He had not even acknowledged our engagement, discussed the wedding that had been postponed for nearly a year. He was running from me, from us, from a duty he clearly resented.
Something inside me fractured. Not visibly-I was too well-trained for that-but a quiet, violent crack in my chest. I was not just a treaty. I was a woman with a beating heart, and he was crushing it with every cold step.
But my breath caught for a different reason. This was my cue.
I took a small step forward. As I opened my mouth, I realized with a sickening lurch that I already knew what I was about to say-and how he would answer. The words rose unbidden, as if someone else had written them long ago.
I hated how desperate I sounded. I hated that I was about to beg. But I had to try. One more time.
"Darius," I said, forcing myself to meet his gaze. "May I come with you?"
He finally looked at me. Really looked. His eyes held cold, impatient scrutiny. A problem. A nuisance.
The look on his face-barely concealed irritation-cut deeper than any rejection. I was an inconvenience. Something to be dealt with and dismissed.
My pride screamed at me to walk away, to salvage whatever dignity I had left. But I stayed frozen, because some traitorous part of me still hoped.
"The North is harsh as winter approaches," he said, his tone leaving no room for argument. "It is no place for you."
The rejection was swift, public, absolute.
I felt not surprise but a hollow confirmation. I had heard those exact words before-every syllable. The memory was smudged, like ink washed by rain. But I knew, with a bone-deep certainty, that this was not the first time he had refused me in this very hall.
The humiliation coiled in my stomach like a serpent. I had humiliated myself in front of everyone-all for nothing. For the same cold dismissal I should have expected.
The anger that had simmered beneath my composure flared white-hot. I hated him. In that moment, I truly hated him for making me feel so small. For never giving me a single reason to believe I mattered.
Heat flooded my cheeks. A faint titter from one of my younger cousins. My mother's hand tightened on my father's arm, a flash of anger in her eyes, but she said nothing.
I lowered my eyes. "I see," I whispered, retreating. "I was inconsiderate."
He had already turned back to my father. I was dismissed.
The rest of the evening was a blur of formality. At dinner, I sat beside him, the space between us a frozen chasm. He didn't speak to me. He didn't look at me.
Each silent moment was a fresh wound. I picked at my food, my appetite gone, my mind a storm of conflicting emotions. Anger. Shame. Loneliness. And beneath it all, that haunting familiarity-the sense that I had done this before, felt this before, been broken by this before.
Why could I not remember? And why did it feel like remembering was the only thing that could save me?