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for me" I called out hysterically to no one

. It was as if my Andrea was in trouble, yes, she was in trouble and I can f

ot lovely flowers, there is nothing lovely about the flo

e is lying down in the garden. But why isn't she moving, oh no, I fear for t

le and there is nothing I could do, no, I caused her this mu

more, it was as if my whole world was falling apart right before my very

all amounted to nothing. No, I did absolutely nothing for her, I mean, I a

eed to be in that garde

s oblivious of everything around me, I was going nowhere in particular. A

ing to fall down when a hand quickly caught me from behind. I turned to

take me to my Andrea," I said

," he replied as he

feel it, it is so real, she need

looked intensely at my beta and was hoping he would understand the extent of my pain, and understand all that I am going throu

ander, there would be no life without her,

fine, she will come bac

ing out my fear to him. "I failed her, Xander, I could not do anythin

new what I felt, he had been there from the very first time and h

rom him, I needed my best friend, Xander to assure me that my ange

d to shake him violently, refusing to let go. "Say something, Xander, why are yo

tely lost as to what to do to pacify me. Already, he knows it is o

m me without uttering any word. I realized that taking it out on h

rd some footsteps approaching. I turned towards the door and saw t

y numb. My restless mind wandered to so many things at once

part of me. in my subconscious state, I opened my mouth wide, and it was follo