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p pills last night, I has barely had any sleep and when sleep did come, my nightmare just had to butt in. I splashed the cool water on my face. It

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. Mom and Dad already had a lot on their plates. A college so far away would wreck their finances. I didn't want that. Finishing up in the bathroom, I proceeded to dress and step into the kitchen at exactly 6:30. Mom and Dad were already there. No surprise. A

g her aging face well. She was the epitome of th

l I had picked up the fork

touch repulsed me but because I didn't want to break. I didn't want them worrying again. "You don't have to lie if y

forked a piece of bacon. It's just nightmares, I told myself. "I'm fine mom. I did scream this morning but that was beca

d who had been quiet all through the conversation

trip, I had cut ties with him. It wasn't because he was cheating or that I was bored of our relationship. I just did not want to go because I knew all too well the damage it would render to my parent's finances. They had done so much for me. I just couldn't just stay selfish and leave. John and I were not on speak

tossing them into my mouth. "Just because we h

allenge me but you could see it in his judgy grey eyes. It took

are now in contact. That means you are

s. I make an honest living at the cafe and when

pting to change. She said trauma changes the way the brain, emotional energy, and nervous system re

ip. It was almost like all of them could read me like a book. I did not like it but it wasn't like I could stop it. I however could deny it. "I

thing more than for the tension to end. I

d. That I knew. I wasn't happy. Why? I had no idea or maybe I just didn't want to go digging because

u happy

. A reply that would satisfy him. But I couldn't come up with a damn

starting to think your problem is you do not try. Life is giving you this opportunity to explore th

and replied. "I do try Dad. I have tried. I have tried for twenty years and it still feels the same. It's exhausting

Honey, Eloise is an adult. She can make her own decisions and if she believes it is what she wants. Our job as parents is to stand by

mother. Neither was the protective figure on the other side my Dad. At least not in the biological sense. My biological mother was dead. K

a peek at the time. An opportunity. I took it. "I'm getting late for work., I said, standing up. "I'll