m

cond. "Shut up you fat worthless piece of shit!" I hit out to try and get away from him, but he's closing in on

his breath makes me want to throw up. "Any last words bitch?" he holds the knif

t attack. I'm drenched in sweat and so are the bedsheets, and it takes me a few seconds to eve

. The dreams feel so real that most of the time I wake up still smelling him, still feeling his touch and I spiral into a panic attack. I have learned to manage mo

is touch, can hear his voice. I look up from the bedsheets and I see his face and any air that I had left in my lungs quickly lea

sweetie, I'm he

't... he'

eze her hand hard as I try and pull myself back into reality, my

. I look around my bedroom, but I can't see him anymore, there's only me and mom in here. My dad is standin

a dad can give you. "It's OK princess, I've got you." Both he and my mom engul

fucked up brain. Before long, I let them know it's OK to leave. It's 7 am and I know they need to get ready to start their day, but I

I won't disturb Savannah and Theo at the moment as she needs her rest with growing two pups inside her and, if I'm being honest, I always end up with Alex more than my

l

er yet. My mind's overthinking as it does so often when I'm in bed lately. It's been six weeks since that pri

fucking night, and sometimes they are so bad that she wakes up in a full-blown panic attack. I'll never forget the first time I saw h

n she's too far gone, she's terrified of any man touching her, including her own dad. Only her mom or Savannah can calm

seeks comfort from one of her brothers or even me, and I'd be lying if I said I didn't love the moments when she comes to me. Of course, I wis

the same. Of course, with all she has been through with Jay, I don't expect her to just declare any feelings for me. She needs time to heal and time to tr

l about finding a chosen mate and having a family, but I assumed that the feelings wouldn't be th

for her kind of love. A love I haven't felt since Anna. A love I never thought I'd feel again and, if anything, this love feels even more special. Ma

want to, but it doesn't matter, because whether it's real for her or not I still know I'd lay down my life for her, no q

as it always does when I see her beautiful face, but any happiness I feel quickly leaves as I see her big green eyes laced with tear

outh a choked sob is all that leaves her mouth and her

st and buries her face in my chest. I wrap my arms around her and slowly walk backward while holding her and

nish her sentence before she's sobbing again. Fuc

oke her hair. It often seems to help calm her down and, thankfully, seems to work again now, as I soon feel her body starting to calm down and her tears start

voice echoes through my head and, as

here with me

we'll be there on time before closing the link and putting all my attention b

from giving out, her smile never fails to take my breath away. We chat for a little while longer as I try to keep her calm and distracted, and then sh