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dow, I let the tears fall freely. The driver didn't say a word. Goo

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ore I stormed into my room and

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lung them onto the floor, took my scis

saw myself i

refoot, eyes red and

d like a

ered, barely recognizin

er to the mirror

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led as I wiped tea

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ch I made as a child a

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rembling lips, t

ction in the

mother and sisters! And guess what, hone

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the pillow until

n't tell if I was crying from ange

minutes. I took my phone a

plings. Fried rice. Che

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just acce

arrived faster

be fully down the hallway before I ripped ope

I was full or sick. I just wanted to feel

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ok. I just kept shoving bite after bite into

shapewear, food wrappers, pill

hter from downstairs, the front door opened, h

e back... my y

that will follow. I

be at my door in a few

to know why, but why I didn't

o fo

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. I wanted to go and lock it to avoid t

t back and contin

oor creaked open.

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side, their faces

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aid ge

eting. Look at that junk food. You

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started shoving them

led, and looked at m

s unlike you! Take Zoloft or s

shout

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own against it, and h

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so rude and chi

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