Un Pélerin d'Angkor by Pierre Loti
Un Pélerin d'Angkor by Pierre Loti
Je ne sais pas si beaucoup d'hommes ont comme moi depuis l'enfance pressenti toute leur vie. Rien ne m'est arrivé que je n'aie obscurément prévu dès mes premières années.
Les ruines d'Angkor, je me souviens si bien de certain soir d'avril, un peu voilé, où en vision elles m'apparurent! Cela se passait dans mon ?musée? d'enfant, très petite pièce, en haut de ma maison familiale, où j'avais réuni beaucoup de coquillages, d'oiseaux des ?les, d'armes et de parures océaniennes, tout ce qui pouvait me parler des pays lointains. Or il était décidé tout à fait à cette époque, par mes parents, que je resterais près d'eux, que jamais je n'irais courir le monde, comme mon frère a?né qui venait de mourir là-bas en Extrême-Asie.
Ce soir-là donc, écolier toujours inattentif, j'étais allé m'enfermer au milieu de ces choses troublantes, pour flaner plut?t que de finir mes devoirs, et je feuilletais des papiers jaunis, revenus de l'Indo-Chine dans les bagages de mon frère mort. Des carnets de notes. Deux ou trois livres chinois. Ensuite un numéro de je ne sais quelle revue coloniale où était contée la découverte de ruines colossales perdues au fond des forêts du Siam; il y avait une image devant laquelle je m'arrêtai saisi de frisson: de grandes tours étranges que des ramures exotiques enla?aient de toutes parts, les temples de la mystérieuse Angkor! Pas un instant d'ailleurs je ne doutai que je les conna?trais, envers et contre tous, malgré les impossibilités, malgré les défenses.
Pour y songer mieux, j'allai m'accouder à la fenêtre de mon ?musée?, celle de toute la maison d'où l'on voyait le plus loin; il y avait d'abord les vieux toits du tranquille voisinage, puis les arbres centenaires des remparts, au delà enfin la rivière par où les navires s'en vont à l'Océan.
Et j'eus cette fois la prescience très nette d'une vie de voyages et d'aventures, avec des heures magnifiques, presque un peu fabuleuses comme pour quelque prince oriental, et aussi des heures misérables infiniment. Dans cet avenir de mystère, très agrandi par mon imagination enfantine, je me voyais devenant une sorte de héros de légende, idole aux pieds d'argile, fascinant des ames par milliers, adoré des uns, mais suspecté et honni des autres. Pour que mon personnage f?t plus romanesque, il fallait qu'il y e?t une ombre à la renommée telle que je la souhaitais... Cette ombre, que serait-ce bien?... Quoi de chimérique et d'effarant?... Pirate peut-être... Oui, il ne m'e?t pas trop déplu d'être soup?onné de piraterie, tout là-bas, sur des mers à peine connues...
Ensuite m'apparut mon propre déclin, mon retour au foyer, bien plus tard, le c?ur lassé et les cheveux blanchissants. Ma maison familiale serait restée pareille, pieusement conservée,--mais ?à et là, percées dans les murs, des portes clandestines conduiraient à un palais de Mille et une Nuits, plein des pierreries de Golconde, de tout mon butin fantastique. Et, comme la Bible était en ce temps-là mon livre quotidien, j'entendais murmurer dans ma tête des versets d'Ecclésiaste sur la vanité des choses. Rassasié des spectacles de ce monde, tout en rentrant, vieilli, dans ce même petit musée de mon enfance, je disais en moi-même: ?J'ai tout éprouvé, je suis allé partout, j'ai tout vu, etc...?--Et, parmi tant de phrases déjà tristement chantantes qui vinrent alors me bercer à cette fenêtre, l'une, je ne sais pourquoi, devait rester gravée dans mon souvenir, celle-ci: ?Au fond des forêts du Siam, j'ai vu l'étoile du soir se lever sur les grandes ruines d'Angkor...?
Un coup de sifflet, à la fois impérieux et doux, me fit soudain redevenir le petit enfant soumis qu'en réalité je n'avais pas cessé d'être. Il partait d'en bas, de la cour aux vieux murs enguirlandés de plantes. Je l'aurais reconnu entre mille: c'était l'appel coutumier de mon père, chaque fois que j'étais légèrement en faute. Et je répondis: ?Je suis là-haut dans mon musée. Que veux tu, bon père? Que je descende??
Il avait d? entrer dans mon bureau et jeter les yeux sur mes devoirs inachevés.
--Oui, descends vite, mon petit, finir ta version grecque, si tu veux être libre après d?ner pour aller au cirque.
(J'adorais le cirque; mais je peinais cette année-là sous la férule d'un professeur exécré que nous appelions le Grand-Singe-Noir, et mes devoirs trop longs n'étaient jamais finis.)
Donc, je descendis m'atteler à cette version. La cour, nullement triste pourtant, entre ses vieux petits murs garnis de rosiers et de jasmins, me sembla trop étroite, trop enclose, et je jugeai trop nébuleux, un peu sinistre même, le crépuscule d'avril qui y tombait à cette heure: j'avais en tête le ciel bleu, l'espace, les mers,--et les forêts du Siam où s'élèvent, parmi des banians, les tours de la prodigieuse Angkor.
Au Maroc est un reportage fort intéressant que Pierre Loti a écrit pendant sa mission dans ce pays, à la suite d'une délégation guidée par le ministre plénipotentiaire Patenôtre, invité par le Sultan de Fès. Nous sommes en pleine époque coloniale, mais l'écrivain, de par sa nature cosmopolite, était déjà arabophile, et de plus marocophile, et n'avait aucun préjugé à l'égard de l'Islam. Il produit ainsi un essai passionnant qui décrit les paysages, les villes, les villages, les gens, avec amour et passion, sans toutefois jamais céder à la banalité de la « carte postale », et, d'ailleurs, il décrit les inévitables misères avec un réalisme sans pitié. Un livre précieux à la fois pour ceux qui veulent revivre les atmosphères romantiques de l'exotisme de l'époque et ceux qui veulent comprendre une importante partie du monde arabe dans ses transformations complexes.
There is to-day a widely spread new interest in child life, a desire to get nearer to children and understand them. To be sure child study is not new; every wise parent and every sympathetic teacher has ever been a student of children; but there is now an effort to do more consciously and systematically what has always been done in some way.
Extrait : "En mer, aux environs de deux heures du matin, par une nuit calme, sous un ciel plein d'étoiles. Yves se tenait sur la passerelle auprès de moi, et nous causions du pays, absolument nouveau pour nous deux, où nous conduisaient cette fois les hasards de notre destinée. C'était le lendemain que nous devions atterrir ; cette attente nous amusait et nous formions mille projets."
The first appearance of Pierre Loti's works, twenty years ago, causeda sensation throughout those circles wherein the creations ofintellect and imagination are felt, studied, and discussed. The authorwas one who, with a power which no one had wielded before him, carriedoff his readers into exotic lands, and whose art, in appearance mostsimple, proved a genuine enchantment for the imagination. It was thetime when M. Zola and his school stood at the head of the literarymovement. There breathed forth from Loti's writings an all-penetratingfragrance of poesy, which liberated French literary ideals from theheavy and oppressive yoke of the Naturalistic school. Truth now soaredon unhampered pinions, and the reading world was completely won by theunsurpassed intensity and faithful accuracy with which he depicted thealluring charms of far-off scenes, and painted the naive soul of theraces that seem to endure in the isles of the Pacific as survivingrepresentatives of the world's infancy.
The whispers said that out of bitter jealousy, Hadley shoved Eric's beloved down the stairs, robbing the unborn child of life. To avenge, Eric forced Hadley abroad and completely cut her off. Years later, she reemerged, and they felt like strangers. When they met again, she was the nightclub's star, with men ready to pay fortunes just to glimpse her elusive performance. Unable to contain himself, Eric blocked her path, asking, "Is this truly how you earn a living now? Why not come back to me?" Hadley's lips curved faintly. "If you’re eager to see me, you’d better join the queue, darling."
For three years, Deanna endured scorn in a one-sided marriage. When Connor forced her to choose between her career and a divorce, she didn't hesitate-she walked away. Determined to reclaim her birthright, Deanna returned as the brilliant heiress to a medical conglomerate. Her ex and his family begged for another chance, but it was too late. With a tycoon father, a legendary healer mother, a CEO brother who adored her, and a showbiz powerhouse sibling, Deanna's life overflowed with power. Even her arrogant rival, heir to billions, only ever had a soft spot for her.
Nicole had entered marriage with Walter, a man who never returned her feelings, bound to him through an arrangement made by their families rather than by choice. Even so, she had held onto the quiet belief that time might soften his heart and that one day he would learn to love her. However, that day never came. Instead, he treated her with constant contempt, tearing her down with cruel words and dismissing her as fat and manipulative whenever it suited him. After two years of a cold and distant marriage, Walter demanded a divorce, delivering his decision in the most degrading manner he could manage. Stripped of her dignity and exhausted by the humiliation, Nicole agreed to her friend Brenda's plan to make him see what he had lost. The idea was simple but daring. She would use another man to prove that the woman Walter had mocked and insulted could still be desired by someone else. All they had to do was hire a gigolo. Patrick had endured one romantic disappointment after another. Every woman he had been involved with had been drawn not to him, but to his wealth. As one of the heirs to a powerful and influential family, he had long accepted that this pattern was almost unavoidable. What Patrick wanted was far more difficult to find. He longed to fall in love with a woman who cared for him as a person, not for the name he carried or the fortune attached to it. One night, while he was at a bar, an attractive stranger approached him. Because of his appearance and composed demeanor, she mistook him for a gigolo. She made an unconventional proposal, one that immediately caught his interest and proved impossible for him to refuse.
I stood at my mother’s open grave in the freezing rain, my heels sinking into the mud. The space beside me was empty. My husband, Hilliard Holloway, had promised to cherish me in bad times, but apparently, burying my mother didn't fit into his busy schedule. While the priest’s voice droned on, a news alert lit up my phone. It was a livestream of the Metropolitan Charity Gala. There was Hilliard, looking impeccable in a custom tuxedo, with his ex-girlfriend Charla English draped over his arm. The headline read: "Holloway & English: A Power Couple Reunited?" When he finally returned to our penthouse at 2 AM, he didn't come alone—he brought Charla with him. He claimed she’d had a "medical emergency" at the gala and couldn't be left alone. I found a Tiffany diamond necklace on our coffee table meant for her birthday, and a smudge of her signature red lipstick on his collar. When I confronted him, he simply told me to stop being "hysterical" and "acting like a child." He had no idea I was seven months pregnant with his child. He thought so little of my grief that he didn't even bother to craft a convincing lie, laughing with his mistress in our home while I sat in the dark with a shattered heart and a secret life growing inside me. "He doesn't deserve us," I whispered to the darkness. I didn't scream or beg. I simply left a folder on his desk containing signed divorce papers and a forged medical report for a terminated pregnancy. I disappeared into the night, letting him believe he had successfully killed his own legacy through his neglect. Five years later, Hilliard walked into "The Vault," the city's most exclusive underground auction, looking for a broker to manage his estate. He didn't recognize me behind my Venetian mask, but he couldn't ignore the neon pink graffiti on his armored Maybach that read "DEADBEAT." He had no clue that the three brilliant triplets currently hacking his security system were the very children he thought had been erased years ago. This time, I wasn't just a wife in the way; I was the one holding all the cards.
Blinded in a crash, Cary was rejected by every socialite—except Evelina, who married him without hesitation. Three years later, he regained his sight and ended their marriage. "We’ve already lost so many years. I won’t let her waste another one on me." Evelina signed the divorce papers without a word. Everyone mocked her fall—until they discovered that the miracle doctor, jewelry mogul, stock genius, top hacker, and the President's true daughter… were all her. When Cary came crawling back, a ruthless tycoon had him kicked out. "She's my wife now. Get lost."
Her fiance and her best friend worked together and set her up. She lost everything and died in the street. However, she was reborn. The moment she opened her eyes, her husband was trying to strangle her. Luckily, she survived that. She signed the divorce agreement without hesitation and was ready for her miserable life. To her surprise, her mother in this life left her a great deal of money. She turned the tables and avenged herself. Everything went well in her career and love when her ex-husband came to her.
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